Bad People @ MindSay

Man something bad happened during my last club meeting. I thought I was done with any poblems..the people even understood and we moved on.

 

Before i go into that....theres something i want to say.

 

I recently said this to my brother when he was having doubts about being a comidien.

I basicaly told him: "No matter how good you do somthing..no matter if you perfom at your best..there will always be someone who will have something bad to say about you..no matter what you do..they will be sturborn and never budge on there choice."

 

This is defently becoming more true with the club.

While i was trying to get a yugioh card from a member that was willing to help out our club for the ebay fundraisers this friend of mine blurts out something that almost screwed up the club's opertunities. The blurt was somthing that was already addresed and taken care of..or so i thought.

 

I've got a few people who truly belive my act..even though i vowed in front of the whole club and explain my real reasons of the act... think and belived ive truly quit..not egting the message...that i've now "gone mad with power" . I've done this club for 4 years now...Its takes responsablty. We've had good and bad moments.

But never like this.

 

This pisses me off. They dont even adrees these issues on the clubs offical site..they say this stuff on the old site!

Instead of addressing the issues like civilized people face to face they go behind my back and say these things..like a cloak and dagger situation plan.

 

In my perspective...im starting to see these toublemakers as a problem..there even my friends...or at least i belived are my friends....and it wouldn't have mattered if i did this ruse or not they already had there minds made up long ago before I even pulled the ruse. This was going to happen no matter what.

Like hyenas or voulchers waiting to peck us to death.

 

The ones ploting this are adults. 20-30ish year olds who arent acting there age! People who havent done what i did to work to make our club what it is today! They didnt go out to fundraise for this..they havent truly given a true effort to make this possable. What ungreatful backstabing bastards

 

All i have from them is complaints ..stupid and bickering complaints like dueling "net deckers" or wish things use to be like this or get rid of a person for a reason not nessceeary.

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Well i hope i see these people this sunday because im gonna put an end to this political bs once and for all..either they clean up there act..or there gone! The club doesnt need more problems. I even said it on the site..we need to start listiening and work as a team! We have problems..address em. Problems cant be resolved if there not addressed.

 

I dont take sides..when it comes to  responsabilty you have to make the right and best fair judgement call.

 

Thats all i gotta say about that. thanks for reading. :(

 

 

This may sound a little rough.
However I don't trust people who I never see in a bad mood.
If someone is in a good mood all the time and always nice ..I tend to think that person is evil.
I am serious  everyone has bad moods.
So when I run across people who never seem to have those bad moments...it kind freaks me out .

No one is happy all the time and if you are .
Then I personally think your  crazy ...yeah I said it your fucking crazy!
I mean come  its not human not to have bad moments.

And if you do nothing but smile at me ....I think your trying to steal my soul.
I mean come on honestly nobody has that great a life.....and if you do  well I don't want your life.
Because smiling is great and all but being that happy all the time has to be a medicated kinda happiness.
It can not be normal.

So in other words ...I do not  trust overly happy people.

.Don't like this person: bonedeth 

Another day just like the rest.  Wake up. Shower.  Internet.  Food.  Depression.

I love my family, and I love my friends, but spending time with them just seems so impossible for me.  It always has, and I don't know why. 

I believe I have promised the world that I would hang out with all of its South Carolinian residents before the big move, but I'm really started to doubt that I will keep that promise. 

I did hang out with someone yesterday, though.  Well, three someones.  Three important someones (and I forgot my camera!!!)  I really did want to go to see Stephen, Andrea, and Autumn, and I'm really glad I did because I had a lot of fun, but I felt forced, kinda because I'm still in that stage where I'm depressed all the time because Steven's gone.  At least I've broken the ice, if you can even call it that, and I feel comfortable going over there to the point that I won't burst out into tears.

That almost happened the other day when I went out to eat with Mom at Texas Roadhouse.  First, I didn't really feel like going because I had a REALLY bad day.  Then, when we got there, some couple was looking at me weirdly, and that made me feel bad, because stuff like that always does.  It makes me feel awkward, and out of place, like I don't belong or fit in with what is "acceptable."  I hate that feeling.  I think I want to cry now just thinking about it.  I've never really fit in anywhere, and I don't really get why.  What the hell is wrong with everyone else?  Why can't all of you just... be like... me?  And the funny thing is, no one else, save a few people, realizes that, no, I'm not the one who has it all wrong.  It is you.  So maybe I'm the shape that's not like the others, but, who would want to be a square, when you could be a triangle? 

Eh, I guess my inadequacies to everyone else's "normal" (which SHOULDN'T be that desirable, but somehow is anyway) are a completely different subject, and I have lost myself in that subject.  Back to the main point(s).

So, I was upset at the restaurant, and had to try my hardest not to just break down in cry.  I remember almost giving in several times, but somehow I didn't.  Really shocking there.  I'd really hate to cry in front of a room of cold, insensitive people, people who don't care, people who shouldn't care, people who don't understand.  I don't even understand.

I have my reasons I'm supposed to be upset.  I use those reasons as excuses, because something much deeper is wrong, something I don't even know about.  I don't know the right questions, and so therefore, I don't have any answers.  Whatever it is, it's been going on for years, and I want it to finally stop.  I got money recently.  I don't think there's anything I could buy to bribe myself into being happy, and while it's awful that I, or anyone else, could try to do that, it's also awful that it can't be done right now.  It is that bad.

    My friend and I were talking about how there are two sides to people and we know that's so true.
 
So people say there are "innocent people" and then there are the "bad people" . Well everyone really is both. Everyone has enough anger or hate to kill someone so an innocent can go bad as a bad person can go innocent. Well I guess what I'm trying to say is that every person has two sides, there's just one  that you notice more in a person. (Which is where they obviously get labeled)
Example: Even a priest could become an atheist