Asshole Guy @ MindSay 
When I get a chance, or have the supplies, I will make my own coffee at home and take it on the road with me on the way to work. It's cheaper, quicker, and there is less of a chance that it won’t be made to my liking. However, I ran out of coffee a few days ago and haven’t gone to the store to get more, so its Tim Horton’s on the way to work. I pull up to go through the drive-through, in Johnston near the highway onramp, but there is a guy blocking the line, talking on his phone. He clearly just picked this spot to BS to whomever, with no desire to get in line.
So I give the guy a little toot. Using the horn in the car is all about the pressure and frequency, otherwise you can really piss someone off. I give him the light toot, and he proceeds to move out of the way in quick fashion. Total time elapsed, 15 seconds. Not bad, so I give him the thank you wave as I drive by. This is when I notice him yelling “Fuckin…” at me. Another stupid Johnston Italian Mafioso wannabe. I hate these idiots. They puff out their chests and talk like retard meatheads. You know that guy.
Anyways, as he see’s my hand raised, he backs off 100% immediately and starts on the “oh, yeah, no problem.” Too late, you’ve exposed yourself as a prick, moron, and degenerate in the span of 45 seconds, not to mention ignorant for blocking the lane in the first place. First impressions count my friend; you get no second chances, way to be an asshole.
At this moment in the movie I went into my own deep thoughts about myself and my past self. Though for me it for me it goes more like this..
If the guy I am now met the guy I was then I would feel pity on that guy, but that guy would feel disgust on the guy I am now as well.
I mean I would see that there i good in me but I would look at my slutty life I lived over the last couple of years and put myself right into the he is an asshole players club. I would look on him and think what a blind fool this kid is to this world. He is going to get ate up and spit out unless he changes....
Funny part is he did.. but he turned into something else that he also did not want to be.. JUST to get away from the pathetic fool that he was...
I hope that I am now in the median between the two roads that I so far have traveled on... but who knows how I will change in the future. I know much will change in the next couple of years in my life. I know that in 2010 I will again already be able to look back and think Wow that truly was many steps ago and much has changed since then. Though who knows what though steps will truly be.. who knows what the future holds. That is why I try to keep my open mind and just live life as it comes at me. Why start to safe up for a future life when I am old when for all I know I could be dead 20 minutes from writing this post. Yes we need a plan for the what if be that a short term or a long life.. but still I try to just charge into my life with open arms.... \
Well that is what is on my mind at the moment.. I think it is time for Trainspotting for the next movie of the night.
Later
~Bob
Since I'm seeing J tonight I went over to yahoo, where I also had the message "I need to get laid" up, and went invisible instead. Maybe 30 seconds after I did that, Phoenix came online. That was a really fucking close call. He probably would have tried to whore me out again. Asshole. Oh yeah, for all of you who know about those times I saw guys for money (I only had sex with one, thank God), it was his idea, not mine, and he was the one doing it. Sure, I could have said no, but I was in a different place then than I am now and it didn't seem like an option to me. It's still really hard not to talk to him, but I want him out of my life. There are still times when I think about how much money I could make in porn if I lose all this weight, but it's not worth it. This is the guy who nearly raped me once, this is the guy who broke into the side yard of our house and threw rocks at my window because I was ignoring his calls. This is the guy who grabbed the hair on the back of my head, pulled me back against his car seat and told me that when he calls me, I should ignore any other calls, answer his and see him. (I told him that I wasn't answering his because I was on the phone with another guy, who was actually my ex.) This is the guy who's lied to me about his age, birthday, job, and name at least three times each. This is the guy who fucking cheated on his wife with me and didn't tell me that until the second to last time I saw him. Yes, I'm going to hell because I saw him one more time after that, and because he told me that before we did anything the time that he told me, but look at that crazy shit he did to me months before. I was afraid of him. I still am. And I'm tired of that. I just hope he doesn't do that shit with my window when he comes by in July...
*thought* it's possible that he was trying to ignore me, but I'm not sure why he would. Afterall, he's always the one calling me and sending me messages whenever he sees me on. I have no idea why he's so obsessed with me. I guess in a way its kind of flattering, but you can see why it's also scarey as hell. He keeps asking me if I want to marry him and he keeps saying he thinks I'm the one for him. I'm 19. He's what, 31? Fucking creepy.