Arguing @ MindSay

This is for the entire Tuatha and is posted for Everybody to read because I may or may not have some of the family on my list and if they want to add me that is fine. 

 

Colleen, Christine, and I are filling for our sister Amy.  PLEASE feel free to contact us for anything you need until Amy says otherwise.  PLEASE also contact the three of us under our direction.  Especially since Colleen is going through some of her own health issues at the moment.  If she, Christine, or I say that this would be best taken to one or the other of us due to our own stress levels concerning our own families and spiritual concerns and tasks.  But do NOT worry.  If all of us our dealing with our own issues one of us will step to plate and help you out as much as we can.  My sister Colleen is a strong woman with a variety of tools in herbal medicines and a pretty darn good parent.  Christine is also a strong woman with a variety of tools in warriorship and also a pretty darn good parent.  Plus they both have a wide range of abilites.  Myself, if you feel comfortable with working with (all but Rose-you get no choice but to work with me-no ifs ands or buts about it) me I am capable of helping and if I am not I'll direct you to one of my sisters or to another in the Tuatha for help.

 

My lovely daughter is reaching a magical birthday this year.  Nine years of age.  Bridget suggested I begin some of her training into the Duil.  So if you or anyone in the family would like to do some of the exersies I am going to be using with my daughter feel free to contact me on this also.  Feel free to change them up to meet your needs if you do contact me to use them.  Our initial "Warrior" training into the physical arts will start back up this next week or two with Taekowndo.  Since our Elder Warrior who is suppose to help me train my children keeps forgetting that we exisit, I had to go to other means to get some physical training in that I am more comfortable with and will have to use what I have available.  Feel free to do this for yourselves especially for any Tuatha member that is far from any other member like I am.  As long as your getting Spiritual Training, Physical Training, and are able to practice with in your life, the Gods will understand.  Just make sure you talk to them!  Even if you feel they aren't listening or watching!  As for Amy and anyone else who are having issues in this aspect, they are all Elders and can handle things and if they can't they know when to ask for help even if they don't want to!  Please NOBODY hold themselves to someone elses abilites or standards.  That goes for myself, Colleen, and Christine!  Because we all are people!

 

I will list my email contact for all of you in this post and if you want my full contact info you will NEED to email me.  If your already on my list and listed as Family, my contact info is in the post called Notice and Annoucement.  If your on my list and aren't listed as Family please let me know so I can list you under family.  Also I am listing another email in this post since Everyone on Mindsay can read this:  use that email first and then I will give you the actual email I would like you to use to contact me.  If you already have that first email please use that one instead.  Thank you

 

to contact me:  snuggles0302@yahoo.com

 

Rose, you get no choice as to which one of us you get to work with.  I am sorry but this has been dictated by the Gods.  I understand you are extermly busy and stressed but you really need to get in contact with me.  And please use the email that was listed in the Notice and Annocement post.  I know you read it because it shows up on Mindsay that you did.  No more excuses.  Feel free to rant and rave about me to anyone you choose, it doesn't matter, you get to work with me.

 

As for everyone else, don't be surpised if the Gods tell Colleen, Christine, or others they have to work with specific people in the Tuatha on various training.  Sometimes we just don't get a choice as we have been forced to realize at some time or another.  It is time for those of us in the Tuatha to step up and either take back specific positions in the family or to step up for the first time to help Amy out.  No fighting.  No arguing.  And a LOT of talking.  I think we can all do this.  Even me.

 

 

 

 

Slept in till 1130 am, when I was woken by the phone next to my bed ringing. I didn't even bother to answer it. Hell, other people live in this house, and its probably for one of them. Like I said it was.

I hate how my parents will take there anger out on me..my brother is in the hosital because he has something like strep throught, possibly mono, possibly an absess (sp?) in his throught. For the last few days theyve been taking there anger out on me constantly..yelling at me non stop for little things..usually nothing. I got in trouble yesterday morning for pushing in a chair..no lie. Pushing in a fucking chair. I had really baggy pj pants on so I was holding them up when I was pushing in a chair and my Dad starting yelling at me saying to stop "dragging it out" and get upstairs and get ready for school (I wasnt "dragging it out"at all..it was actually 40 minutes till I had to leave for school, and I just had fisnished breakfast..didnt even sit down for a minute in the chair to let it digest, just got up and pushed in a chair and I got yelled at.) Last night I finally had enough of that bullshit. I didnt eat supper yet and it was nearly 10pm and I was getting yelled at, so I got some spaggetti. I even got yelled at for that because I didn't have a porkchop with that! My dad said that I was going to wind up in the hospital because of that. Well I guess I can't do anything to please them can I! I dont get supper, I get yelled at. I get supper, I get yelled at, so I just started yelling back: "No matter what I do I can't seem to please you can I! I get supper, and I get yelled at STILL! Well, your just mad about Robert and your taking your anger out on me! Thanks! I feel sooo LOVED!" All while doing this I was walking out of the living room, up the stairs, into my bedroom, with a plate of spagetti in my hand, and slammed the door. I ate it, then while I was doing that, about 10 minutes later my mom came up and starting apologizing for my dad. Pfft..thats ridiculus. She can't apologize for dad because she does it to more than she thinks! The other day I was in a different argument with my parents so I stopped yelling and I didn't speak at all..like at all, even when they were trying to talk to me I didnt look at them or ignologe them because I didn't wnat to get in trouble for anytrhing I said. My mom then starting saying that I was stupid, irresponsibe and ignorant because I didnt do alot of chores aroud the house. Humm, well I also have to do homework, volunteer, go to school, and go to piano lessons. My mom dropped out of school in grade 10, she dosent have a job. She has to do laundry, cook, and clean the house. Thats about it. The rest of the time she drinks, smokes, plays cards on the computer and does puzzles..watches tv sometimes to. I may not do alot around the house, but if you add it all up I do more work than her. My brother even said that when he had to stay home for a week from school for something HE did more work than her, and I can say that hes probably right.

 

I'm basically the anger dump for my family, whenever someones angry they take it out on me. When my brother Mike's annoyed he calls me an emo bitch. when Robs annoyed he yells at me (i wished him yesterday on the phone to get better and he started yelling at me because I said "well obviously your prtty sick..i hope you fel better" then hes like "Well no SHIT im sick!:| I hope I get better to!"). When my parenst are annoyed they yell at me and insult me, and I know thats its just me getting yelled at to for no reason, bceuase if last night my parents were worried about another one of their kids going to the hospital, they would of been yelling at Mike, because he got fucking wasted in his room with his friends, went out for a smoke(my parents don't know that he smokes when he drinks though), came back in, then left for a concert. My parenst were at the hospital when he smoked but they new about the drinking and the concert.... So I get yelled at when I eat spaggetti but when my brother gets drunk and passes out for hours its no big deal! It just shows who the favourites are in my family!

 

K thats enough ranting for now, its almost the end of 1st period. I just needed to get that stuff off my chest...

 

- Kristal

hey

Well things with me yesterday and today have been really screwed up. Yesterday I hung out with Sean and Chris for like 6 hours. We went on Chris' trampoline, went to macs, and randomly walked places. We actually ended up seeing fire from the plane crash that happened recently. We were like 30 feet away from it:| The fire that we saw were just really small patches..no bigger than camp fires. The fire must have spread for it to go to the area where i live..

 

Anyways School today was alright..lunch was amzing:P Me Nigel and Kyle were at the far end of the tech wing where the doors were and we were talking to eachother making jokes, then I think it was brendon who came up and hes like "what are you guys talking about" and I'm like "nothing" *pause* "So Nigel the baby's due in November:P" Brendons like "what?!?!:|" lol. Yea of course I was obviously joking..I'm a virgin, and will be for a longggg time.

 

Well in other news my english mark FINALLY is where I would like it to be at: 89%. I'm pretty \happy about that. So now my marks are 89 in tech, 89 in english, 80 in geo, and 83 in science, which puts me at a 85.25% average, so my parents are pretty happy about that.

 

Umm well me and my parents have been bickering back and forth like crazy lately, I actually got yelled at for tucking a chair under a table this morning:| Not even lieing..

 

My bro Rob is in the hospital..he has a throught infection or something..doctors think it might be mono. If T-bay can't help him he might be flown out to toronto or winnipeg. Aprils been a terrible month these last 2 years, last year my dad got crushed by a roll of paper at bowater and broke his pelivs in 3 or 4 different places, and one of my best friends nearly commited suicide. This year my brothers in the hospital, and my emotions have been jerked up and down like crazy..like for a few days last week I was all blahh and sad, and then I was stressed, then happy, then sad again, now I'm just kinda mellow today..in the middle...

 

anywyas g2w byebye

 

-:)Kristal:(

hey

well today was day 2 of semster 2..it was alot better:) in tech were doing a poster thingy which is cool:) in english it was very boring..were doing stuff about short stories and stuff..i honestly couldnt pay attention. Lunch was fun as always..i kept on saying fruit salad because of a video me and conan know:P lol. Geo was alrite..were doing maps and stuff so it wasnt too bad..besides on of my best friends is in there: sean. Science was good:) i sat beside deedre and jade today..i had work to but i didnt do much cause it was much more entertaining to talk to them:) lol besides i can just do it for homework which i perfer to do(ill explain y in a bit). So overall today was good day:)

 

Anyways i figure the less i hang around my parents the less arguing and insults and less emotional pain ill have. And i figure if i do my work first the less arguments ill have. I kinda laready knew this but i havent really tooken action till rite now..ive been pissed off so much lately..and with me anger turns into sadness and tears..so yea. Honestly id rather feel physical pain than emotional...i realized this a while ago and once i did i realized y sum people cut their wrists and such. Physical pain can go away pretty fast but emotional pian can stay forever. I guess thats just life for u. But thankfully school is part of my life..i love school. Its a place from  home. Honestly im most happy when im with friends or at school. Its like home is hell and school is heaven.. in fact i wrote a poem about this last nite:

 

Heaven and Hell 

Never a happy medium

Aways horrible pain

Or great joy

 

Its either heaven

Or hell

Never going onto supportive ground

 

 

Hell

So much anger

Too much pain

 

Yelling

Anger

Frustration

 

Horrible Emotions

Anger and Sadness

Ending in tears

 

Heaven

My beautiful escape

That holds hapiness

 

Joy

Friendship

Love

 

All of which you can give me

So hold me, kiss me

And love me

 

Because I'm always going to have to go back down

But you you are able to

Make me rise back up

 

By: Me

Date: Monday, February 5th, 2007.

 

It kinda turned into  a love poem at the end but o well...anywyas i have to work at pinewood in an hour so i gotta eat and do homework so byebye

 

-:)Kristal:(