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Home, Sweet Home
Well, I moved in yesterday, so I guess today is my official first whole day. It's not as great as I thought it was - the apartment, I mean. The bathroom door is fucked up so we had someone come and look at it and they ripped the fucking floor to shit. The tiny, piece of shit kitchen smells like roach powder, probably some shit like a Borat mixture or something. I am so bored! Crystal (my roomie) went off to work and won't be back until 8 or so. We don't have cable yet, the internet is slow as fuck, and to be honest I'm a bit nervous to leave the apartment by myself. It's creepy and I live on the eighth floor. I don't want to be raped!! :P (I'm only half kidding.)

I'm watching the movie, Girl, Interrupted. It's one of my favorite movies, partially because I feel like it reflects a lot of shit in my life. Plus, I think Wynona Ryder and Angelina Jolie are hot as fuck. lol I really love the character, Lisa, that Angelina Jolie plays. Lisa and the rest of the girls that are at the mental institution are the ones that are fucking sane, man! Everyone else around them are the people that are crazy - living in some false reality, telling themselves a bunch of fucking lies to try and make themselves happier, but none of them are fucking happy except those that are considered "insane." This movie makes me depressed as hell, but it makes me feel good - it makes me think about life. It's one hell of a movie and an even greater book. I'm glad that my parents decided against sending me to that mental institution after I overdosed. Fuck, man, just a couple months ago some dude raped some woman at that very same institution that the doctors wanted to send me to. Scary! Although, I wonder what kind of person I would be today if I had been forced to go.

Jared Leto, from the band 30 Seconds From Mars, is in the movie Girl, Interrupted too. He's also in the movie Fight Club. He has such beautiful eyes. They just stand out so much. I wish I had eyes like that. I mean, I guess I have pretty eyes. Crystal is always saying that she wished I didn't wear glasses because they make my eyes look smaller and she thinks I have big eyes - not bulgy eyes, just big eyes. People used to say that I had doe eyes, you know, like a deer. I guess that makes me feel good. Not a lot makes me feel good anymore and if it does, I can't fucking remember it.
 
 
   
 

Moving time, again?
Well, our lease is up here in July.  We are talking back and forth about moving.  I don't really want to, but if they try to raise our rent, we almost certainly will.

So I am torturing myself by looking at rental listings.  I've come across two places with a spiral staircase.  And let me tell you - stacy loves her a spiral staircase.

I know it's too soon to do anything, but a girl can look, can't she?
 
 
 

   
Starting new

I'm trying to catch up with everyone's entries from this weekend.  I was internet-less from Friday morning through yesterday afternoon.  I moved into my apartment on Friday.  So, other than a few odds and ends that I still need to move over, I'm done with the house.

 

I wasn't sure how I'd feel about it, but I think it's the best move I could have made.  I talked to six24  Friday evening after the moving was done and he said I sounded more excited than I have since this all started.  My dad said the same thing when I talked to him Saturday night.  He thought I sounded really good.  Personally, I don't notice the difference when I'm talking to people, but I know I feel better.  It's nice to know that there aren't any pictures of her sitting around, and there are no memories that include her in this place.  I think there were times this weekend when I forgot all about her, and it's a great feeling when I realize I've been able to do that for awhile.

 

This situation sucks, but I am a lucky man.  I have one of the greatest groups of friends anyone could ever hope for.  Eight people came to help me move, another one or two would have if they didn't have to work.  Most of these are people who are also friends with my wife, and the amount of support they're showing for me is really overwhelming. 

 

The separation agreement has been completed.  I reviewed it again on Sunday and gave my attorney the OK to send it out to my wife yesterday.  She should be getting it this week.  In my last meeting with the attorney, we decided to put a statement in the agreement attempting to get half of the down payment on the house back.  It will be interesting to see what my wife has to say about that.  I think it's more than fair, but we'll see.

 

So, other than that stuff, my weekend was mainly spent organizing the apartment, unpacking boxes.  Played some pool and drank some beers at my friends' place Friday night, tried Indian food for the first time on Saturday.  A good weekend, really.  A starting point.

 
 
   
 

Eliminate some stress!
Well, I have an apartment.  That takes a big weight off of my shoulders.  Although, it feels so strange to be moving back into an apartment that I still feel anxious and nervous.  I'm sure that will pass.  It just feels like I'm taking this huge step backwards in my life.  Get married, buy a house, lose wife, move back into apartment.  Oh well, it's just one more step taken care of.  Taking things one day at a time, and I'm making it without her.
 
 
 

   
Decisions, Decisions

I have to be out of my house by the end of this month.  So, I have 28 days left to find a place and move out.  A bit daunting...  I figured I'd get an apartment where I used to live before we bought the house I'm currently living in.  I probably still will, but a new option presented itself today. 

 

A friend of a friend just bought a place and she's looking for a roommate.  Now, I've only met her once, and her place is a little further away than what I was planning, but I'm also thinking that this could be kinda fun.  It could be a good way to meet some new people, but am I really ready to move in with someone I barely know?  She seemed cool enough when I met her, but I don't know.

 

Oh, and just cuz I liked it, here's a little something, but it's not directed at anyone, so relax :)

 

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