Another Blah Day @ MindSay

it seems as if i am doing fine...then the slightest memory of you breaks me down...why you have this power over me is still a mystery...i just want it to end and wake up not thinking of the hours to come...it's funny to look behind me and only imagine what was there...i will cherish everything...the good and the bad, because that my dear lost soul, is what brought us closer...i hope to have you here, next to me, around me...close to me...but i know that day is not anytime soon...every time i cry, i want the tears to take a part of you away from me...and yet i let them roll down my face, hoping they won't drop to the ground...you will always be in my heart, but i know you are doing better than being here...when allowed, we will meet again!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have to admit I was giving every little kid the evil eyes today for even walking into game store. I mean come on, do you really have to shop at a game store just because you have the school day off? Then there was some kid trying to get Saint Row's, this stupid Xbox 360 Mature rated game. Blah blah blah screaming Grand Theft Auto Copying all over it. I just don't get kids growing up these days. Ultra Violent stuff now and days. Pfft Halo is just 007 Golden Eye of the next generation, no big deal. But man never seen so many first person shooter games in my life. They didn't exist back when I was a little kid. But anyways all the kids that enter my store are all spoil brats. They get money for making their bed or cleaning the bathroom. First of all. No kid should be getting paid for that, because they're suppose to do that. Go cut a 1 acre yard for like 20 bucks that took half the day. Bet you can't do that. If I ever have kids they won't get allowance, if they've been good, I'll give them something without them asking me. It's better that way. When I asked for something and my parents got it for me, and it was out of the blue.

But anyways yeah, kids came in with all their stupid trades, don't know how to savior their videogames at all. So been working hard most of the day. Did anybody consider to think about what exactly Labor Day means? Well larbor day is for the people who larbor hard, I mean come one, coming from wagons to cars. No phones to cell phones. Dish washers, washing machines, etc. I mean think about it, all this stuff wouldn't have been created without hard work! So let appericate that! Moving on!

 I went to church yesterday. And I really needed it. It amazes me everytime I go to church the message always seems to have God next to me whispering to my ear saying, "Rory this is for you." Well the message was on God's patience. God is SLOW. SLOW TO ANGER. Have you ever felt like when you're talking to God and you need something that he's never there and has abandon you. I know everyone is going to say yes to that. But have you ever thought that we're running on our own time. God has his own pefect timing for our lives. Of course there is lots of thing we will never understand, especially when a person dies.

One reason why I hate America, we want things now and fast. Or we'll moan and groan about it. It's pathetic. We want things on our own timing, so impatient we are. If we wait, we get things beyond our own expectation. God is never in a hurry and we shouldn't be either. God's timing has always been a key pactor in his purpose and plan. We have trouble because we don't understand his ways. But think about all the stories to back this up. Noah's Ark, Parting of the Red Sea, if that wasn't timing then I don't know what you call that @_@.

The requirements for all this is to have humility, faith, and patience. Just stuff we need to work on. It will take a while but you never know, you could see yourself better place. I wonder sometimes. I mean if I didn't go to church when I was younger for all those years, I definately wouldn't be the person I am today. I'm blessed that I can think and have god still smash through all the stuff I go through now nd talk sense into me. It's just now on me to just listen to what he has to say, or what he's trying to show me.

Sigh Home work @_@ =_=

So it's my only day off this week, and there is absolutely nothing to do.........I haven't the money to go out...I'm tired of playing games, and nobody is online......I am ready to shoot myself in the foot for some entertainment......

My pals are workin' all the girls I even care to think about live too far away......and being mr. Lame and having no car doesn't really help the matter.......

Any ideas........?

So, its another average day in my life.  I'm bored as hell, and even though I know I have homework that's due tomorrow in my Health Careers class, I don't feel like doing it.  I'm just in one of my moods.  One of my "Blah" moods where I really don't care about anything with a few exceptions.  Blah.  *LOL*  So, I'm a little upset cuz I only get to miss Wednesday and not Tuesday too.  I really was looking forward to that, but I guess one day is better than no days, right?  Right.  Well, I know no one wants to hear this, but Robert's been on my mind all day.  Seriously, I was doing work in my 6th hour class and I was writing stuff in my workbook and the next thing I know, I'm writing his name down all nice and prettyful.  I think it is now officially safe to say I'm getting more feelings for him (or maybe I'm just getting more obsessive, IDK).  Anyways.  Offa that topic.  I'm really really bored.  Maybe I should get started on that homework... Nah, I think not.  Well, I just thought I'd blog today, maybe I'll blog more later.

 

Love To All,

Morgan (yeah no fancy artwork here)

 

PS:  Eric called me yesterday while I was at work to apologize...

I told him that I didn't want to hear it, that he was a sorry muthafucker,

and that I never wanted to talk to him again (or more or less I wasn't

allowed to talk to him again)

Ian you fuckhead, you went and changed on me.

So here I am bitching incessantly about you. : (