Annoying @ MindSay

It's been ages since i've come back! For some weird reason i'm unable to access mindsay at home but at uni I can? Strange indeed help!

 

 

Buddy of mine got me a birthday present which was awfully nice of her, even though she didn't have to and I told her many times not to, she still did anyway! Too bad it feels like I haven't spoken to or caught up with her in ages, feels like we're kinda distancing ourselves a bit, but then again she's busy, she works and has a boyfriend so thats all completely understandble.

 

Considering it's October already I can't believe how fast the years gone, feels like I haven't done anything at all. Accomplished little and wasted so much time. So long weekend had just passed, took the kids at youth group to the park and did a little sports day thing and looked afer the older kids at a sleepover and man, are the kids now that dumbed down or we're generation x that oblivious to things as well?

 

Failed an assignment by the way. Which leads me to the thought of having to repeat the subject again next year which will hamper my initial plans of just finishing up by July 09. I just find it so frustrating that as students we're meant to learn for ourselves yet when we cannot fathom the concept we like to blame things other then themselves, which I know i'm very guilty of.

The waiting game begins yet again...

 

So end of year camp is coming up, which i'm so nervous about, not really ready and not much info or guidance by the others but we'll see how it all goes. Youth groups been a mixed bag of lollies lately, you seem to enjoy most of them but then some days are like the little licquorice lollies you get and despise. I dunno some days just get to me while others I don't have a care in the world.

 

Hope friends and family have been well!

Can't live with them... Can't live without them.

First off.. MFA. So, he's been hanging out with me more now that I'm out of school and stuff. Actually.. it was more of.. after FFA started getting really upset. But yeah. I could live without him, and yet not. I could live without him flirting with me and constantly being mean and stuff. But seriously, his weirdness just kinda tones my weirdness down to others, lol. At least I don't have fake fangs that I'm constantly putting in my mouth [just kitty ears, XD]. Also, he does seem to have a tolerance when I do things [Like loudly play Paramore, a band he doesn't much care for] that he doesn't like...

MFC/Ex.. Also could live without the flirting.. though with him it's fairly obvious... And of course, some of the things he does to FFA will indirectly cause pain to me [like when she woke me up at 1 in the freakin afternoon... because he hung up on her in the middle of a 'fight']. But also, he does have a car... and that car tends to drive me places for food and stuff... lol... Plus his jokes are ussually pretty funny and/or original. So he's a fairly creative one.

MFD... Now I haven't talked about this one.. But he's pretty weird.. And also VERY repeatative... Many people have noticed/.. also, his faithfulness to his girlfriend is unbearable... ok, normally, this would be a good thing.. But seriously, here's an example of how much people hate her. We have a friend.. who loves or at least likes everyone she meets, she'll always find something that she likes about them. Well, his girlfriend comes down from MN and after she leaves, our friend says she hates her... Everyone hates her.. plus we have reason to believe she doesn't even like MFD and she's cheating on him..  But what I couldn't live without him for is that he's also 100% faithful to his friends as well... plus, he's the person to hang out with if you dont want drama... And he led me to the group I'm now in..

And then of course there are exceptions to this.. the only person, however, that I can think of as an exception is my boyfriend.. He's everything I've ever wanted.. Now, some girls might say, "well, doesn't he get annoyingly jelious?" He does.. but I couldn't live without that either.. It only means he's protective and he loves me enough to not want to lose me. I like that. Yes, sometimes it is annoying,  but it's good. His rants are funn to listen to, His singing, though very off key, is still amazingly heart warming, and he's very good at keeping me happy. Even his stubborness is a plus cuz it gives me a challege... the only thing wrong with him is that his physical being is way too far away from me.

Anyway.. That's all I wanted ta say.. And yeah.. Someone else post something that I can read, lol

-MewCutie-

It's something I've felt for awhile, but my dad is really unresponsive with a very high pride that isn't very necessary and totally uncool. Whenever we ask him questions just for a chat, I have to ask him at least three times until he answers with a really short yes or no. Whenever he does something bad to us, he ignores it and pretends like it never happens and refuses to say sorry even if it's something really small. He thinks if we sleep it off it will all just go away.

But what frustrates the MOST is he's only like this with us. When he's with his friends he's really happy all the time... very talkative... very sensible. It frustrates me how it feels like he cares more about what people think of him more than what he thinks his own family will think of him.

Since he is the "boss" of the house he can do whatever he wants and it doesn't matter. I hate this. I really hate this type of guy.

But I've seen this and lived with this for all my life that I think some of his habits came to rub off on me. It's so annoying and I hate it.

But I know my father works very hard for our family and that I can't do anything without him.

But it's just the way he controls us that frustrates me. We have to do everything HIS way. When I wanted to study hair he refused damn right saying I don't have what it takes when I didn't even give it a shot. And so I went to college and I wanted to go overseas to korea to teach english for one year (and it wouldn't even cost me a CENT and I would get paid) he said no because it's too dangerous and stupid.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I get so mad....

If i ever get married it will never be with someone like my dad.
It will be someone with a bright personality who speaks out their own thoughts but is thoughtful of others too.

Actually, today I was suppose to go out bowling with my friends. but I didn't have anything good to wear (all in laundry) and I didn't want to look stupid so I pretended  that I was busy. But right now I wish I went out anyways...

I do NOT understand women. At all. One minute, they're fine and the next, they're not. Pisses me off. I will admit that if other people are actually around when I have my panic attacks, they'd probably think the same thing. But for me, it's only one or two things that make me snap. For one of my other friends who was broken up with like what.. 2 or 3 weeks ago, it's every single f*cking thing. We'll call her FFA [Female Friend A].

So to one of my male friends [He'll be MFA], I look like a little sister to her.. and he torments me with that name all the time. I'm always there for her, always helping and shit. I'm tired of it. I'm fucking tired of always having to wake up because she's crying over her ex-bf because he doesn't want to take to her anymore. And I really don't blame him. She's annoying. I was hanging out with him today, as he IS one of my friends too, and we were talking about FFA and stuff. I was telling him her side of the story and listening to his. You know, her sides seemed to always be missing something, they never seemed quite full... I hear his sides, and I hear everything I've heard before.. but with more. His stories are complete.

Recently though, she's pissed me off to no end. She's always going onto my computer and downloading shit that takes forever to get rid of and find, And I've told her not to. Last night, I wanted to hang out with friends but I wasn't allowed to leave the house. So I called her to see if she wanted to come over and she said she was at the mall with bunches of people and didn't want to. So I ask her if she knows what everyone else is up to, like MFA, MFB [another friend of mine], and Ex-Bf. As soon as I mention his name she tells me that she doesn't want to see him at all and she doesn't want me to hang out with him. Okay, that's fine, I guess I can understand that, so I don't hang out with anyone.

Today, I go hang out with her at work, as usual, I go to Bubble Tea and get us drinks. When I come back, MFA is there and FFA is freaking out. She tells me that Ex-Bf is there at the mall. I try to cheer her up, but nothing seems to be working. MFA has to leave and I go with him ta see whats up.. She doesn't want me to leave, which I suppose is understandable, But I really wanted to know what was up. So with her permission I go with MFA and talk to Ex-Bf. I decide ta hang out with them, but I knew FFA wouldn't have let me so I told her that my mom wanted me to come home and she's like, ok, fine. And starts ranting about how perfect her and Ex-Bf were together and shit. So I fake my mom calling me and start to leave. And this is what pisses me off. She told me to have my computer ready for her when she comes over.

Okay, At no point did I EVER invite her over. Yes, for FFB [A VERY close friend of mine in Iowa], that would have been fine. But not for ANYBODY else. So, I hung out with Ex-Bf and MFA for the rest of the day and we were all having funn [I told FFA that I ended up getting grounded for the rest of the night]. Ex-Bf is ready to move on and only won't talk to her because she keeps asking if he'll ever take her back, even though the answer is always the same.

Here's another thing, FFA never listens to what I have to say and almost NEVER has my back on ANYTHING. Period. Ex-Bf actually knows how to debate, He'll take in what I have ta say and then condradict it or if it's right, agree with it. Plus he's pretty much always got my back on quite a few things, he's loyal to his friends where FFA is more of just a parasite to hers. Sucking away time, posessions, and life.

I'm done.

-MewCutie-

So, work's been crazy. This week I worked Fri, Sat, & Sun, and I'm scheduled to work on Tues next week. Apparently last week Josh quit, Melody was fired, and Kim put in her two weeks notice. Bad for Subway but good for me (because now I'll hopefully be given hours!).
Anyway, major moron came in with his family on Friday night and tried to stay past 10pm (when we close). He came in at like, 9:55pm, ordered, THEN sat down and started eating. Seriously. So, I had to ask him to leave (explaining that we get in trouble when customers are in the lobby after hours) and he got all huffy and was like "Well you could've told me before I started eating," and "Well that's why I asked you when I was ordering" (Dumbass, I was in the back cleaning. I didn't even serve you...my sister did. Get your head out of your ass), etc. The second time he said "I'd have thought you'd have told me," was like so annoyed I was like "Well I would have thought you'd have read our hours that are listed on the door!" Moron. Seriously people, it's not that hard.
Saturday I got the weirdest guy when I came onto my shift. He got to talking about age and what not and wanted to know how old I was and how old I thought he was (apparently he's 22 *shrug*) etc. Anyway, when we got down to the register I was like "Do you need any cutlery?" (he'd gotten a wrap and it was uber messy). Cutlery? What's that? Knives, forks, etc. Oh, no I'm good. When you said 'cutlery' all I could think about was what I've got at home *Raises eyebrows and nods head...mmkay...*I collect swords. Oh cool, my brother collects guns. Swords are so much better than guns. Guns are too quick and easy. With swords you can disarm the person then torture them later. Oooh. Yeah. Okay, have a nice day.
Weeeeerrrrrriiiidooooooo. I'm sorry, are your sadist tendencies supposed to be an attraction for me or something? Also, collects swords my ass. I'm sure there's an actual term for swords that has nothing to do with the word "cutlery."

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So, I actually intend to do something for my birthday this year (May 23rd). Yay! I've decided to round up some peeps and go to Cootie B.'s for dinner and then hopefully go see the 2nd Narnia movie with whoever wants to come along after dinner. Here's a list of people who've been invited:
Mama - yes
Laken - yes
Ariel - yes
Paula - yes
Wyatt (& Jesse) - yes
Greg (& Jeff) - yes
Donna & Perry - undecided.
Anyways, it should be pretty fun. I hope Donna and Perry can make it...they're tons of fun. Also, I'm uber glad that Wyatt's coming!
I've been trying to decide what to wear....I know I want to wear one of my dresses...I just can't decide between my red halter or my black one with flowers on it. They both look cool, damn it.

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Other updates include:
*My allergies suck. I'm taking Benadryl (?) right now but it's not doing that much good. I'm going to try upping my dose to two pills at a time tomorrow, but that may not work. I have to be careful with it because it apparently affect(ed)s my grandmother and mom negatively and would make them really emotional and unstable. *shrug* Oh well.
*The comic strip is coming along slowly. I've only come up with one idea for one strip so far. I'm lame, I know.
*If you don't know her already, Ingrid Michaelson is friggin awesome. Laken, Mama, and I are going to try to get tickets to her show in SC this summer. I cannot wait!
*My stomach keeps hurting. And my back and legs are killing me right now (damn my intolerance for being on my feet for 8 hours straight, 3 days in a row!).
*Suzanna's driving everyone crazy. She's amazingly spoiled which has come as a shock to all of us. She's really selfish and she whines a lot. She's also insanely clingy. Which sucks...since she'll be living with us all summer long....oi. She's going to Nashville for a week on Wednesday, though, so we'll get a mini break from her at least.
*Iiiiiiii waaaaaaant sleeeeeeeep. Good night!