I'm so bored! Seems like there is nothing to do - nothing to do where I live anyway. I met a couple of people on this website who live close to me. They all want to hang out, but I know that they all think I will put out or something. It's hard to have conversations with them too, because we only share one or two things in common and the conversations always seem to steer towards sex... something that doesn't really interest me right now.
My life has been reduced to sitting at home watching anime, reading, or browsing the internet. Granted, that's probably all my fault, but... I just hate the people I know. There is someone, though, who I admire and look up to. I wish we could hang out, but he's an ocean away. We have lots in common and he's so easy to talk to. Plus, he's a fucking genius and it feels like he's the only way I can really have intelligent, deep conversations with.
Sometimes it feels like just being at home watching anime or reading is easier. The lives depicted in books and movies are always so much more magical and it makes me sad sometimes because it isn't real. I wish I could trade lives with someone just once to see what it's like to do something different. Like trade lives with someone from Europe or Asia. I'm sure their lifestyle is completely different from mine. Jeez... I'm just so bored.
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