Always @ MindSay

I always make sure to think, to revise to memorize.
My plans are etched in the silver lining so I'll always be a day ahead.

Already by age We're a year apart, so I'm a year ahead as well.
Already you can see, that I acknowledge love,
So I'm three years ahead.

Everday I've learned knew things, little habits you probably didn't know of.

So already I'm a day ahead.

Ahead in my thoughts,
Ahead in my love,
Ahead in my planning for a future.

A promise I made,
A promise I will keep that will always leave me a day ahead of you.

I'm leaving soon to go off to college,
But I know if I wait,
No matter how many day's ahead you I may be,
I know you'll always catch up to me.



"For those who checked to see if I wrote yesterday gomen, I'm still a kid inside so Naruto and other anime can be very distracting"

I'm going to the IHS 2008 Fall Homecoming.  How is it that when I was a High School student, I couldn't even get a date at all? but now, that I'm going to ICC: I get invited?  I'm going with a long time friend who's just a sweetheart.  I made sure he knew it wasn't a date.  Because, I love him, but just not THAT way.

 

Speaking of love...  Gaige comes down this weekend.  I'm not going to Shawnee, so if he's not going to OK either, we'll probably be hanging out.  I'm so far removed from this that I feel capable to talk to him without having my weird feelings get in the way.  He's a great guy; and I've totally forgiven and forgotten the standing in the rain thing.  Why carry that with me?  It's not like we're dating, so what's the big deal?  He did try; just not hard enough! =]  I think we're hanging out at the Game on Friday.  Who knows.  I'm totally lost when it comes to him. 

 

If he comes over on Saturday, my mom's threatening to make him a Brisket, and my dad may scare him away from even talking to me, let-alone being my friend.  Who knows.  I don't care, but yet I'd hate to lose a friend because of my uhh, overbearing father.

 

It happens. 

 

As does reconnecting with an old best friend.  I still don't feel like she and I are really able to be BFF's again.  Too much, er, drama, too much something... seems like anger towards eachother.  I don't know... there's a lot of things and people I blame.  But mostly myself...  something could have been done!  It seems that everytime I talk to her we gossip.  I feel so heartless and mean when we get talking.  I don't know what's going on these days...

 

It happens.

 

It's also the first day of Fall.  The Autumnal Equinox and all that rot.  I wore shorts today. 

 

It happens!

 

The new House of Heroes CD, "The End Is Not The End," comes out tomorrow.  I'm listening to it right now. =]  I love pre-orders!  Got the shirt and everything.  So far my favorite song is Baby's A Red, which I just found out is about being in love with a Communist. =]  Hey...

 

It happens.

 

Merry week of specialness and grandure.

Things are not always what they seem
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Two travelling angels stopped to spend the night in the home of a wealthy family. The family was rude and refused to let the angels stay in the mansion's guestroom. Instead the angels were given a small space in the cold

As they made their bed on the hard floor, the older angel saw a hole in the wall and repaired it. When the younger angel asked why, the older angel replied, "Things aren't always what they seem."

The next night the pair came to rest at the house of a very poor, but very hospitable farmer and his wife. After sharing what little food they had the couple let the angels sleep in their bed where they could have a good night's rest.

When the sun came up the next morning the angels found the farmer and his wife in tears.  Their only cow, whose milk had been their sole income, lay dead in the field.

The younger angel was infuriated and asked the older angel how could you have let this happen?

The first man had everything, yet you helped him, she accused. The second family had little but was willing to share everything, and you let the cow die.

"Things aren't always what they seem," the older angel replied.

"When we stayed in the basement of the mansion, I noticed there was gold stored in that hole in the wall. Since the owner was so obsessed with greed and unwilling to share his good fortune, I sealed the wall so he wouldn't find it."

"Then last night as we slept in the farmers bed, the angel of death came for his wife. I gave him the cow instead. Things aren't always what they seem.“

Sometimes that is exactly what happens when things don't turn out the way they should. If you have faith, you just need to trust that every outcome is always to your advantage. You might not know it until some time later...

             She must have been dead.

       That was the thought running through the minds of all the townsfolk of Damont that looked on as the limp girl made no sign of life. None of them had made any attempt at helping her, other than the one man who had run off to call the priestess of the town. A funeral would be had here, most thought, most thought wrong.

      The girl had been lying there for two days, found by a wandering merchant, not far from the boundaries of Damont. The girl had a certain elegance about her, even in her state. A fair complexion, curled dark hair to her waist. Her outfit was of a tattered dress, nothing more. Hours some waited for hope of life in the young girl, a few years short of adulthood. Though they were empty hours, hopeless the people made for home, as finally the priestess would arrive, only to leave once more in shock, to find her eldest brother.

     The remaining few watching over the girl, bowed their heads in a silent prayer as the priest walked over to the girl. The priest was merely a young apprentice, but at that, he still carried much respect over the people. The sight of the girl took the priests calm air from him for a moment, but he quickly regained it, sending the townsfolk away.

"The girl is alive. None should worry for her."

     He knew the girl. At least, he thought he did once, a specter she seemed. For the girl before him had died in front of his and hundreds others eyes, two years ago.

Nina found an apt with her love in Seattle.  It has a view of the Space Needle.  I will be up there soon to see them and their place.   We will spend some time in the Northwest------I hear it is pretty.

This is hard for me...even with my boys still here.  I feel like a have lost a part of me...I need to get over this loss.  DAMN  it is hard for me.