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Dixie currently feels:
Depressed
(Well what else is new...?)
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Yesterday was a bank holiday Monday, so I spent the day at Adam's house.
We played a few songs on Guitar Hero III co-op, and got him a couple of groupie points.
Then he burnt me Parappa The Rapper, and I tried it out, did the first few levels, and got the "U Rappin' Cool!" rank on level 1.
When I got home though, I kept failing level 1.
Which was annoying...
Almost as annoying as the fact that memory card slot 1 is broken on my chipped Playstation, so I'll never be able to save PTR, because it will only save to slot 1.
Anyway though.
We sat around drinking Cherry Coke, eating Oreos and sweets - milk bottles and cherry cola bottles - then crisps and salted peanuts.
Adam then suggested he get out the old PS1 and we play Resident Evil 3.
Of course, he played it, I watched and offered my hints. :)
It was great fun actually.
The weird thing was though, every time I seemed to speak - something would happen.
And this happened like five times - every time I started talking, either zombies would jump out of cars, dogs would jump out of windows, or Nemesis would burst out of a door.
Today's been shit though.
It's weird though - I don't think I've done ANY schoolwork today.
- OMFG THERE'S A SPIDER ON THE WALL BEHIND MY MONITOR...
...But yes.
Umm...
Lesson 1 - IT, exam prep, I'm not doing the exam again, I had nothing to do, I went on FPC.com.
Lesson 2 - English, revision, I didn't do a lot, just listened and read.
Lesson 3 - Science, Cowley just talked us through our coursework.
Lesson 4 - Maths, Wilson wasn't even there, we were down in humanities 2, and Miraan, Amanda and I just played hangman for like the whole hour.
Lesson 5 - Media studies, down the CLC, Sam and I just sat there playing hangman on the PC, because we can't really do an awful lot on our project.
Though, I felt depressed all day.
Just listening to a certain set of people who used to be friends with me until they met each other - talking and laughing down the aisle next to me.
So I cut myself a little bit.
At dinnertime, I did my left, and I did my right after school.
Which was a bad time to do it, because as Mrs Mac was talking to me, she took me by the right wrist - as she often does when she talks to people - but she pressed her fingers right into the fresh cuts, and it KANED.
So I just stood there wincing, trying to keep silence, despite how much it hurt.
Tomorrow I have to go and see those people, and I'm not looking forward.
At least mother isn't coming.
Sigh...
Dixie currently feels:
Depressed
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This week is going very slowly...
I keep waking up at the wrong end of my bed with all of my pillows on the floor.
I feel tired during the day and awake at night.
My sleep patterns are really distrupted.
All I want to do right now is just hibertnate.
In last lesson today, we were made to watch a video that some arseholes in my tutor had made.
It was all about choosing sixth forms.
I wouldn't have minded - if it were made by people I liked and respected.
But it was made by a group of total utter twats - who everyone likes, everyone finds hilarious - and they're pure and total wankers, not a shred of skin covering their worthless bodies is even fractionally amusing or intelligent.
Every year, our school has a film festival.
The head of drama - my tutor teacher - organises it.
I hate drama, I have no confidence.
But it's my dream to make a good film and enter it for the festival.
But I can't.
Everyone would laugh at me and take the piss - just because it's me.
It's not fair.
I can't do anything I want without being ridiculed for it.
I cried down my aisle today.
Then I came out and sat beside Claire - and cried on her shoulder.
She didn't move, didn't speak - didn't seem to care either.
Emily isn't here to comfort me.
She won't be thinking about me.
She seems so distant from me since the ban.
Every e-mail she sends seems to have lost the flair that makes Emily and everything she says... It just doesn't seem that I'm important to her anymore.
I'm not important to anybody.
1. How old will you be in five years?
Gulp....33.
2. Do you think you will be married by then?
Maybe.
3. How tall are you?
5'4''
4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
Holiday, time off from work, my mom freaking when she sees what I got her, lovin' time.
5. What's the last movie you saw in theater?
Deja Vu.
6. Who was the last person you called?
Mumsy.
7. Who was the last person to call you?
Gregory
9. Do you prefer to call or text?
Calling.
10. Do you have any pets?
Cat, I'm a kitty cat, and I meow meow meow, meow meow meow.
11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
Sleeping
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
Divorced
13. When is the last time you saw your mom?
Thursday
14. What color are your eyes?
Blue/grey/green
15. What time did you wake up today?
5:42 in the am.
16. What are you wearing right now?
A bathrobe - I'm delaying getting dressed.
17. What's your favorite Christmas song?
"I'll be home for Christmas."
18. Where is your favorite place to be?
Sappily, with Gregory
19. Where is your least favorite place to be?
Stirrups, in the doctor's office.
20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?
A Club Med in Mexico
21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
I have a hard enough time thinking where I'll be in ten minutes.
22. Do you tan or burn?
Tan, I think. I don't seek out the sun that often.
23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
Abstract things.
24. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
Something Gregory said.
25. How many TVs do you have?
2
26. How big is your bed?
King, and it's still not big enough. :)
27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?
Desktop
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
Sans clothing, unless I fall asleep clothed.
29. What color are your sheets?
Light blue.
30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
There are usually four on the bed.
31. What is your favorite season?
I'm gonna say spring this time.
32. What do you like about fall?
The crispness of the air.
33. What do you like about winter?
Our anniversary.
34. What do you like about the summer?
My birthday is in summer.
35. What do you like about spring?
Rebirth.
36. How many states have you lived in?
Um........(counts on fingers).....five, and three other countries.
37. How many cities/towns have you lived in?
Eight, I guess.
38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Bare feet.
39. Are you a social person?
Sometimes.
40. What was the last thing you ate?
I had hot cocoa before going to bed last night.
41. What is your favorite restaurant?
Chick-Fil-A
42. What is your favorite ice cream?
Coffee, but I don't like ice cream that often.
43. What is your favorite dessert?
Creme brulee
44. What is your favorite kind of soup?
Cheddar broccoli
45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
Grape
47. Do you like coffee?
Nope, but I'm growing very fond of chai, thank you veddy much Drea.
48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
Whenever I'm thirsty, I'll usually drink water.
49. What do you drink in the morning?
A chai latte.
50. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
With.
51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
The right hand side, but I migrate to the middle often.
52. Do you know how to play poker?
Nope
53. Do you like to cuddle?
Yep.
54. Have you ever been to Canada?
I wanted to for a long time, but was reminded that it is cold up there.
55. Do you have an addictive personality?
Yes
56. Do you eat out or at home more often?
Out. That really needs to change.
58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
Percy Bysshe Shelley
59. Do you want kids?
Oh my no.
60. Do you speak any other languages?
I can sign, a bit; and understand more German than I speak.
61. Have you ever gotten stitches?
Yep, loads of times.
62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Yeah, I was kinda accident prone as a child.
63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
Ocean.
64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?
Aisle.
65. Do you know how to drive stick?
I've done it once.
66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Yarn, and clothes.
67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
I have earrings that I don't take out.
68. What is your favorite TV show?
Firefly, the Simpsons, Scrubs, Criminal Minds
69. Can you roll your tongue?
Yes.
70. Who is the funniest person you know?
Gregory never fails to make me laugh. I am such a sap.
71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Nope, I have real ones.
73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
My mom has some of them.
74. What color are your bedroom walls?
White.
75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?
Nope, I brush in the shower.
76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
Well, there are no closets in the bedroom, so.......
77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
Neither.
78. Do you flirt a lot?
Nope
79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Sweet and sour sauce, or ranch with honey in it.
80. What is your favorite food?
I like food a lot, most foods.
81. Can you change the oil on a car?
Yeah, just like this: trot trot trot to mechanic's store. "Hi Art, I need my oil changed."
82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
*ahem* Yes, though not as many as I should.
83. Have you ever run out of gas?
Nope.
84. What is your usual bedtime?
Between 9:30 and 10. I'm old.
86. Do you read the newspaper?
I haven't touched one in ages.
87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
To Maxim and Cosmo. I like to confuse my mailman.
88. Best comedian?
Uhhhhhh..........Jack Black?
89. Do you watch soap operas?
Nope.
90. Do you dance in the car?
Oh my yes.
Now that I am later than I'd like to be, it's time to get dressed.