Again A Blah @ MindSay

Joe loves Rhode Island, blah blah blah, who gives a shit.  Read his blog and find out how much, his name is Joofis, if you look on the right of your screen you can see where he visited me, so go visit him.  But anyways, it is refreshing to see someone show loyalty to the place where they actually live, as opposed to all the Portuguese, Italian, and latinos who absolutely can't stop jerking off to other flags.  Go back to Portugal, Italy, Guatemala then, if it is so great.  People can't raise the American flag in this country unless it is the 4th of July or planes are flying into buildings.  It takes terrible things for the people of this country to have pride in where they come from.  Aside from countries embattled in Civil War, I guarantee you would be hard pressed to find a more divided country than the United States.  If people were less concerned about being this nationality or that, which they completely aren't, this country would be leaps and bounds more respectable.  For example, you don't have to go tanning, wear gaudy gold chains, and speak like a douchebag simply because your parents or grandparents are from Italy, no you really don't.  There is other food out there besides pasta, however tasty it might be.

oi...I need to stop stayin out so late...I'm going to becoem nocturnal or somthing...I went to classes left early came home sat on the computer for a bit laid down and just died...sad thing is I was invited to go to Psycho Suzies (The Bar/Restraunt not the person) tonight and I just don't feel like moving...I've been loaded down with a lot of homework and it doesn't help that I haven't been talking to Leif I miss him so much o.o; but I completely understand, he told me what might be going on this week so yeah. I'm not complaining just stating a fact I miss him :( but anywho...I got some more of that course work shit to do...(blah blah blah...college is worth it...blah blah blah...your education is important...blah blah blah...it'll get you a good job...blah blah blah -what about my sanity?- oh wait it was never there...hunh)

 

I'm hungry...I'm sleepy...I'm definatly not in a 'people' friendly mood...but I luv you all anyway... :D 

gosh i hate being stupid.

I guess what floats my boat is the constant need to be hurt.

and shit i do it so well

but i guess that is why my interaction with a member of the opposite sex has been limited to mark

also why it is so easy for me to be a virgin also, because mark sucked he was just easy for a lack of a better word, easy because he liked me, we were always together, and none of my friends liked him. it grew from there

gah my baby sister, she is not really related to me, but she is basically my baby sister is 14, she has already made out with 6 people, this year!!!

I was happy to talk to a person that i couldn't look into the face because i was scared of developing a crush on him.

oh that person.  I wanted to hold him so bad.

all i got was a crappy one armed hug.  i wanted him to hold me and to look up into his eyes and kiss him and all of that was running through my head.

so my response, i looked down and made a fool of myself.

i feel so immature and stupid.