Again @ MindSay

I am having one of those bad days again. You women out there know what I am talking about, the kind of day where you are tired and your pants are fitting a little to tight, everything seems to be getting on your nerves??!! I mean, I have seriously had one of those days all day. I am feeling pretty down on myself. It seems like I have been having these days more often than not lately. I have been trying to lose weight that has seemed to stay glued to me since childbirth and it has not been going very well. I have not lost a single pound.

This is my pitty party. I get on the scale, look in the mirror or just put on a pair of pants and I feel so blah... blob...

I really need a support system. My husband is great man, but he does not see a need for me to worry about it. I know that is really sweet of him. I don't know what, but I need something different, like maybe, come on Honey you can do it just stick to it, you will lose it it takes time... Something. I feel like I am stuck in whirl pool of bad self esteem!

I love God with all of my heart and I have been praying about it. Maybe I am being to vain, maybe it is not His time for me to lose it... I don't know. But I am ready for a change. Have you heard that song by Run Kid Run called freedom? Man, it is my song!!! It describes me completely! I need FREEDOM!

Hi everybody I have another blog!!! It's dragonish and has music and stuff! It is awsome! Click here to go there now! I am now reading a number of books about cats. My favorites are the Warrior Saga! HOMEPAGE!!! I also found a site related to them-ish!!

I actually feel good right now! I am done with Andy! It started with not calling him, and now he's been online and I did not start a conversation! He said hi and all I said was Hello. But then I was looking around on youtube and found a video, of a song I knew a long time ago. But right now it has a lot of meaning, and I sent the link to him! I will Survive! I FEEL GREAT RIGHT NOW! XD

I WILL SURVIVE!

First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to break me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me

http://youtube.com/watch?v=Xv6lHwWwO3w&feature=related 

I decided that I wanted to start blogging again.  I use to..as you know.  I've missed it.  It is creative and its comforting.  Actually, I've missed the anonymous comradely as well. 
Me?  I think that I am out of college.  I studied at a community college for at least 4 yrs.  Doing medical stuff, studying western civ.  That sort of thing.  Then I realized that I wasn't going anywhere, just learning.  It bothers me that I don't have anything to show for myself, in education. I hate how American's base worth on a degree.  That isn't how God bases worth.  Nobody in the bible went to college.  God used them much more than I have ever seen him use a  person with a masters.
I don't think college is good or bad..I just don't think that everybody has to have a degree to be worth something.  I love to learn.  I learn more NOT in college than in.  But I don't have a degree. I don't need to explain how it has bothered me.  But I had so many things I had wanted to do that if I had gone off to college somewhere out of state then I would have missed out on what I've learned since then. 
I went to Prague.  I teach. I counsel. middle school girls.  camps. passion conferences. going to Poland.  And I am asking God do "stuff" after I come home in August.

So here is me now.  Back here again.  Where are you?

 Hello friends,

Well, here I go again. This is my third attempt to create my own mindsay account. My original was lost when I lost the screen name /verifyable e-mail address that I created the mindsay account with, not sure if I can retrieve the second account.Not sure why but mindsay would not accept the password I thought I used for it, so concluded that it was wrong altogether and since I've decided to create this third new account I may simply delete it now if it is retrievable and start over once again with jacks1wench. This particular username was inspired by a friend whom if he is reading this now he knows who he is.  LOL  Call me computer illiterate because yes I am, but I wasn't having much luck with this whole blogging site. I've done some exploring and learning so far since creating this new account and boldly dared to offer a couple replies along the way. I can only hope my "newbie" status has not offended anyone. From what I've learned about mindsay thus far I think if I can learn to use it and all it's wonderful features I will enjoy being a mindsay member and finding new friends. I'm an insufferable chatter, I have many interests and love to chat with just about anyone  who cares to share theirs. Am I opinionated? You better believe it! But not so that I won't listen to anyone who cares to share theirs. I invite your comments to my blogs as long as they are not malicious in nature. Especially if they are on the "socially tabooed " list of topics. You know: Politics, Religion and anything that is not typically "PC" of course that list changes everyday. LOL  So, hello friends, old and new come make yourself known to me!