Was that just me sleeping all the way from midnight to my alarm at 6:04 without waking up in the middle of the night!??!? First time that has happened in... wow. More than 3 months. Maybe I really am sick.
In other news, I think I've written in here before that one of my guys
LCA has been in about 6 foster homes in his 7 years, and recently found out he was being shipped out
again, but this time, the family wants to adopt him. That to me is the silver lining; the fact that this kid will be somewhere FOREVER. No matter how tough his behavior might be, they're agreeing to say, "this is our son, we are going to love him and work with him and get him through this". To me, 2 of my heroes right now are Ken and Jamie.
It can't be that simple, of course. Apparently, Ken and Jamie are 2 men. This does nothing for me in either direction; it's just fact. The important thing to me is they want a child, even a tough one, and have passed all the screening needed to prove they are financially stable, have clear backgrounds, and enough money to support a child at least another 11 years. His current foster family is apparently very religious, and thus disapprove of this arrangement, and may be making comments to him about his new family. Which has to be hard for a little kid who likes the 2 men he's just met, and is not excited for ANOTHER new family but is also excited at the idea of finality... I dunno. He's been more explosive than the beginning of the year the last 2 weeks, since he found out, and I can't help wondering what they say to him about it.
Either way, when we first found out he was going to be adopted, we were given an estimated departure date of mid-October. To me, that seems REALLY soon. Ken and Jamie may have passed the screening process, but for a kid like this... they have to be around him more to really see what they're up against/need to prepare for. I also have to question, "Well, you've met 5 times, now you're a family!". To me, the process seemed very accelerated, giving him a mere month to meet them and then shipping him out.
Got news yesterday after school - coming to school today, taking tomorrow off for a sleepover at their house, and then last day in my class/school is Friday. He will not necessarily KNOW that tomo he's taking off school, OR that when he comes back on Friday, it's his last day.... but the next 2 days could be a warzone.
I STILL feel like a truck has hit me. All of it seems very rushed, and makes me so nervous. He's so broken; it's the only word I can use to describe this child. I wish I could do something to make this better for him, or to guarantee that this will get him a good life. He has certainly earned it.
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