Addictions @ MindSay

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I tried to blot out the haunting thoughts of what occured yesterday with lots of Pepsi, crisps and video games with no rest breaks. I finished off Canis Canem Edit last night - thus I went to sleep at about 4AM.
I did get the 100.00% completion though, so it's another game mastery marked on my Backloggery.

Today I was mainly playing Guitar Hero 5 and Guitar Hero: Greatest Hits. I was attemtping some of the dodgy challenges on GH5 and doing a few new songs that I've recently learnt on the vocals quickplay.
Naturally though, I couldn't blot out everything I was thinking.

Mam took me into the Coral shop she manages today to take some photos for my Addictions Photography project. I'd dabbled a little in the idea of video games addiction, but gambling addiction seemed just as promising.

Naturally, I was nervous about taking photos of strangers - the aspect of having to actually speak to them, but seeing as how they're all regulars to the shop, mam knows most of them by name - so she was there to do some of the asking for me. Which I was grateful for.

Here's a few that I got:

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In order to get me through these dreary first college weeks, I'm having to bear something in mind that I can look forward to at the weekend, or when I get home. This week, I'm looking forward to having Shelly sleeping over tomorrow night - and since yesterday, I've got the first three PS2-exclusive Guitar Hero games and a massive stack of unplayed games that I can dig into. :)

English was a pretty simple lesson - sort of self-studying if you will - making tables and taking notes.
We all did this while Angela called us up individually to talk about our AS grades. I now don't feel as bad as I did previously about my shitty C. I was only 4 marks away from a B - and Angela's told me that I can re-work a bit of my coursework to get those marks, thus bringing my coursework to an A, leaving my exam grade as is - A + C = B. :D

During my break afterwards I was proper ravenous, so I got some oriental ribs flavour McCoys and a BLT sandwich. Shelly came and met me and we sat on the tables by the transporter entrance.
When I'd finished my sandwich, I stuck the label on her arm. BLT became a new abbreviation - for Shelly, it stands for BIG LESBIAN TWAT. :D

Photography was basically just a big meeting held as a group.
We all chipped in ideas about what assignments we wanted to do. Paul's made it so we can have a taste of each others' ideas, then choose the one we like best and run with it.
My contribution was Addictions. There's so much to branch off from it.
I was thinking drugs, alcohol, medicine, pornography, sex, video games, television, junk food - my list is endless, hence why I'll probably stick with my own idea.

I'm certainly not keen on Shelly and Michelle's ideas. They both want to do landscape-based shite, and I hate landscapes - I like still life macro stuff and portraits. I was pretty okay with Hayley's idea, Emotions - hers seems pretty portrait-orientated too. She seemed to be keen with my idea as well.

The 3 hour break that followed was spent with Shelly in the LRC.
We were that bored, we resorted to Wikipedia to entertain us. I decided it was time to educate Shelly about JAPANESE TOILETS. :)
(Among other things - we spent ages on the page, reading over it and sharing our opinions on it. Lmfao. I'd told her about them before, but she'd never fully comprhended it until she saw it for herself.)

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When I came home, I ate hot-dogs, followed by a chocolate spread pancake while dad and I watched a new episode of The Simpsons. Fairly amusing it was too. :)

I've spent the rest of tonight playing Guitar Hero II.
I'm alternating between the easy and medium careers to start off with - getting the easy shit done out of the way before we get onto the fun levels. :D

Oh, and my packages today were Amelie and PaRappa The Rapper 2. :D
Now I'm only waiting for Shelly's present and the CD from nana. Come on Play.com!

My boyfriend and I are going away tomorrow.  I think it'll be good for us.  He wanted to surprise so he booked a hotel at one of my favorite vacation spots.  We'll be staying overnight on the 3rd.  I want this relationship to work so I need to start putting more into it.

 

 

I told my boyfriend that my drinking has gotten out of control again and he said he will support me and go with me to meetings.  I dread having to stop again because I know it will be really hard and I will get pissed off becasue other people can drink but I can't because I have a problem.  I bought a 12 pk of beer yesterday and I have two small mini wine bottles.  Once that is done, probably by Saturday I am done and will go back on the damn Antibuse.  Having an addiction sucks.

Yeah, like this post isn't going to shock the hell out of people.

I basically had a mental breakdown while in gerany, was rushed to the hospital because I had become so drunk that started to slit my wrist, not only was there blood all over my sheets, there was also beer and vomit. Manically I was cleaned up and sobered up. Then ordered to to go home to my family doctor and into his care. So I came home and was basically 302'd and sent to Washington Psych Unit Tripple A. It was me and a bunch of other drug addicted alcoholics who failed death. And now we were stuck in a small prison of discontempt, constantly tranqued with pills so every was calm. Yeah that lasted for two minutes. They had me on all sorts of mood stabelizers and sleep aids. They upped my thyroid meds and gave me anti-depressants. Basically stayed there for a little under two weeks. Then I was shoved into the battlefield again called life. I had to find a therapist and slowly, but awkwardly talk about what happened and why I'm here. I will spare you all those details, as there's a 1Billion character limit when posting.

So now I'm on all sorts of daily meds. I"ve been having bloodwork every month, and twice this week because  I am scheduled for an MRI of my Brain this friday, Yes a fucking MRI of my brain.....

I'm scared, pissed, lonley, worried and all sorts of emotions that cannot be described with tact. This is like the super super short succint version.....One day I'll post allllllll about what reallly happened.

lmao that title actually has little to do with this actual post. Ok, since my last post, there have been quite a number of school related happenings. Monday was a biology research assessment. 25%. Now for this, you're allowed to bring in up to 10 printed pages of researched information, and an unlimited number of handwritten pages. Being the procrastination prone person I am, I didn't actually start my research until 12am on the Monday morning LOL. But then, it didn't actually take me that long to find all the information that I *thought* was needed. Only about an hour or so ^^ And here I was walking into the exam room, with one and a half pages of handwritten notes, and all around me are people holding small booklets xD And I thought I done alright =o I was happy with what I wrote so yay for me *nods*
We had a similar thing for Chemistry, on Thursday. And, like I done before, my research didn't actually start until 12:30am. Unfortunately, unlike before, the research was a lot harder and more extensive T_T I didn't get sleep until a little past 4am. I decided to get on msn just to see who was on at that time, and found Patricia xD Who isn't in my grade, and was studying for a history essay she had to do first period =] She was still awake when I disappeared >.> *feels sorry for her*
On Friday, we got our exam time tables, and our Jersey design was voted on. Except we don't have a jersey =o We're getting jackets. Which, I actually don't mind that much. They seem nice enough. Except for the part that we're only allowed to have our first or last name on them, without variation. "For security and safety" apparently. That logic is flawed to me. I mean, HOW THE HELL IS LETTING THE WORLD KNOW YOUR REAL NAME SECURE. Seriously. =_=" Oh, and the names apparently are placed uber low, near your buttox. I hope the final products don't turn out like that. *shakes fists at other schools which already have theirs and don't require real names, and don't have Ms Coombes as a principal*
People were going around selling Bandaged Bear things on Thursday and Friday. I had fun with those, as many may have noticed. Those little bears that you can latch onto your pen? I gave it teeth and an evil face, then found plenty of places that I could stick it on to. E.g. my ears, eyebrows, cheeks, neck, eyelids, chin, etc. I'm proud. Strangely proud. ^^"
I've decided to throw away one of my most recent addictions. I'm talking about Drugrunners, which is a text based online game, which I stumbled upon by randomly clicking an ad in the Oh! Infinity forums. I was pretty good at it. But. It's just so. Leeching. Of time. lawl. I've also decided to try my hand at photoshop. I started downloading it yesterday, and I have it open right now ^^ And...I'm staring blankly at it. =_= I'm sure something will happen eventually. maybe. hopefully. damn. lulz.
I've also decided, as of literally just now, that I'll blog whenever something happens. Rather than what I normally do which is blog almost weekly. I figure that should make me seem like a more active person than I really am ^^ Also, it won't make my posts seem so long and daunting to read.
Your turn Phi. ;P