Addiction @ MindSay

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Fridays are so pointless. Well, the lesson itself isn't, but the fact it's right in the middle of the day and I need to go into college for just one and a half hours seems relatively pointless. :(
 
Because I didn't have to get up until fairly late, I made up my lost hours of sleep that I used last night to play Pokémon Ranger: Shadows Of Almia instead. Yeah, I said I'd finished it in my older blogs - but then there's the matter of the epic amount of sidequests. Being the obsessive completionist that I am - they must ALL be finished. It's the law.
 
Mam drove me into college about 10 minutes before Film Studies and I hung about on the ground floor playing Solitaire and listening to Judas Priest. My current 'play-on-repeat' song is Electric Eye. I've learnt most of the words - I'll be able to do it on GH:GH vocals soon. :)
 
(I'm writing this in the LRC at college and I'd just like to say that THIS SPACE BAR IS A PILE OF WANK.)
 
Anyway. Film Studies was one of those handout lessons. Sarah gave us a wodge of sheets about Mise en Scene and we were to fill in the blanks on them. I shot through this - I didn't even need to use the word banks at the bottom of the sheets. Tee hee.
 
With all this free time I'd rendered myself, I wrote a few more coursework notes in the back of my notebook and wrote the lyrics to Electric Eye all over the front cover. :)
 
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On the way to the bus station, I stopped off at Home Bargains and landed myself a bag of tasty junk food items for £1.01.
Two bags of crisps, two Reisen bars and a can of Coke.
 
These were promptly taken home and enjoyed during my Super Paper Mario marathon. :)
I'm currently at chapter 7-2. It shan't be long now...

How do we handle the uncovering of someone's secret addiction? Shock, disbelief, denial? Acceptance, absorption, assistance?  I am still in amazement about Diane Schuler, the mother who was driving on the Taconic Pkwy last week responsible for the deaths of 7 innocent people.  I just cannot understand how a mother could do what she did.  Her husband, who should be grieving, seems to be in complete denial about the conclusions from the autopsy.  I cannot imagine how the other families involved feel.  He wants his wife's body exhumed for an independent autopsy? C'mon guy, let it go.  Admit your wife did wrong.  Your wife killed 7 people.  Put your head down and grieve for those other people instead of trying to save your wife's reputation.

 

 

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I think I've found a way out of this shitty depression laspe, at last.
Fair enough, I still feel shitty inside - but I don't feel anywhere near as bad as I have done the last week.
Shelly and I discussed what she thinks caused me to start feeling depressed in the first place - and then I discussed it with Adam.

Actually having a possible answer alone made me feel slightly better.
But thanks to the combination of yesterday and today - I've spent two pretty decent days in a row with my friends. Shelly yesterday and Adam today - and of course, I'll be seeing Ash on Saturday. Next week I'll be seeing Adam again, and there's even a possibility I might get to see Lewis. :D

Today's been another strange day where the time just seemed to vanish.
Adam and I can sit around for hours upon end just talking and/or listening to music together - and before we know it, like three hours have passed.

I've been addicted to Final Fantasy VII today.
It's a good thing Adam likes it too - because I wouldn't even agree to turn it off and play a different game with him.
Of course, I wasn't ignoring him - we were still talking and watching videos on YouTube together. At times, he sat on my bed with me, or he sat at the computer.

I did turn it off at one point to play Resident Evil: Code Veronica X.
Though, this proved something Adam said last time he was round.
"Murr, you and Resident Evil, you die and you get pissed off - then you proper turn it off and don't want to play it."

Or words to that effect anyway.
It's true though - I got killed by the shitty poisonous moths - then got MEGA pissed off.
Fine, if I got killed by fucking tyrant or bandersnatches - BUT NOOOO. FUCKING MOTHS.

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[WARNING: Approaching FF7 RANT]

Over the course of today though, I've gotten both Yuffie, Barret and Cid up to level 99.
All that's left now are Red XIII and Vincent - Vincent being my most hated character, due to how useless he is.

I'm planning on kitting them all out with Master Magic and Master Command materias.
Along with these, they'll have [Counter Attack], [Final Attack-Revive], [Added Effect-Contain], [HP Plus], [MP Plus], [Double Cut] - and my four favourite characters (Cloud, Tifa, Yuffie and Cait Sith) will have [Enemy Skill].

I'll distribute [All-Barrier] and [All-Restore] between those characters I don't often use too.
That way, if I ever feel the need to fight with a different party combination (I think you do for the final boss anyway), they'll all be ready to kick some arse.

Naturally, there needs to be some random [KNIGHTS OF THE ROUND] somewhere amongst them all. :D

When I've sorted my levels and materia out - I have Ruby and Emerald WEAPON.
After those - it's only the final boss and I shall have completed my favourite game, that I've spent over 500 hours of my life playing. (All on different saves of course. My current save is only 60 hours.)

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I watched 2 Girls, 1 Cyst today.
Adam told me about it - and the forum it was posted on, everyone made out that it was way worse than 2 Girls 1 Cup.

Seriously, I didn't even flinch.
Fair enough, it's not PLEASANT - but it's not vomit-inducing either.
Alright, don't watch it if you don't like blood, gore, pus, mucous or exploding fatty tissue.

I personally, wasn't disturbed or even disgusted by it.
I didn't ENJOY watching it - but I don't need to reach for the eyeball-bleach. :)

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I felt bad for Adam when his fucking mother decided to turn up.
I didn't even want to listen to them arguing on the doorstep, so I closed my door over and put my iPod in my ears.
I've noticed that when I feel uncomortable - I get under things. Usually my duvet or cushions.

I tried to console him - but it seems that some things just don't change.
The fucking slag. :(

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My eskimo/polar bear pjyamas are weird.
I woke up this morning with the bottoms inside-out and the shirt buttoned up wrong.
I must have really strange reactions to what I experience in my dreams.

My addiction to Sonic Adventure 2: Battle continued today.
I've gone from around 90 emblems to 120.
I've started work on my Hero Chao - and I've almost finished all of Eggman's missions.
There's a few that I didn't manage to get the A rank the first time, but I should manage it on a second attempt.

I ate chicken nuggets and spaghetti for my lunch, then I put my Wii remote batteries on to charge and I cleaned my room up ready for tomorrow and Saturday.

Shelly's coming to see me tomorrow, and hopefully, Ashleigh and Adam are coming on Saturday.
Adam definatley is, but I haven't confirmed stuff with Ash yet. I hope she'll be okay with the idea.
If she is, it shall be muchos hilarity. I'll be too hyper. :)

This sorta sucks because it makes me want to go on a spending spree to entertain myself....to get from being bored. Today I am going to IKEA to buy a new book shelf. My home made one is sadly falling apart. I would built a new one.... but I feel like reorganising my apartment and that would be a huge mess. What do I mean by "reorganising"? Well basically I'm gonna gut my apartment. Pull everything out of everywhere sort and organise then take what I don't need to a storage unit. I've been feeling extrememly closterphobic lately and I think I need to just clear out all this crap in my apartment. Start fresh again. I hope it will help....You'd think for a one bedroom apartment I wouldn't have much. You'd be way wrong. This project might take days or weeks. I have four days off starting tonight. I highly doubt that I will get much done tonight. My first night off is always my "laying around day". So I usually don't do much of anything. I think I could at least get the new book shelf together though. Wish me luck in not flippin out and buying the whole dame store.

 

Besides that I am feeling the call of W.o.W. How can I be so hooked on a damn video game? Is it because I enjoy the fact that during no matter what hour it is it's always running? Always people there to talk to? Does it keep me sane? Is it the fact that it keeps me from spending insane amounts of cash on meaningless shit?

 

I'm on the verge of cracking and signing back up. I know I could easly quit when I had a life someone to hang out with....but right now I have nothing really. I feel ashamed of my addiction but I love it too. WTF is wrong with me!!!