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I was wondering about my grade school years. I am self-diagnosed ADD/ADHD and mildly dyslexic. And I have struggled with these all my life. I don't know if my parents ever had me tested for these. I think they might have. But then again my childhood was full of doctors ranging for heart doctors to specialist for my birth defects. Also, I have in many ways either forgotten or blocked out most of my childhood so how am I to know.
I do know that my parents mad a conscientious decision to not put me on the drug Ritalin heavily being pushed back then. I know now that that was one of the hardest decisions they ever made with me. I also, know now that it probably was the right thing for my future.
but back then, It made my school years very very hard. I did next to nothing in school. A few of my teachers all but gave up on me (teachers will tell you they don't do this but we all know they do).
I kind of wish my parents would have sat me down and told me about my conditions and explained to me what and why I was the way I was. I wish they had explained to me ways to control it. They probably didn't so that I could just have a bit of my childhood innocence in tact.
They never gave up though, I'll give them that much, they got me tutors (well actually, paid my cousin to tutor me) and put in long frustrating hours working with me.
I knew that there was something wrong, but mostly just felt stupid. I felt isolated from my peers because I could barely do things like basic math. And this lead to so negative behaviors.
Growing up, I had a relationship with my parents, especially my father, that was very stern and controlling. I never felt I could go to him about problems. He was very distant and unapproachable emotionally. The only emotion I ever saw from him was anger. I was very afraid of his temper. I was afraid that he would react with anger if I went to him about anything. My mother has even said to me that my father wanted us to fear him.
I'm still dealing with some of those issues today, but mostly I know how foolish they were. But, I wonder and wish about how my life could have been.
Like I said, My parents decision to not medicate me for ADD was a good thing. I know a number of people form my generation that can not function in society because they never learned how to deal with life without popping a pill. I am so glad that I did not end up like them. But was I diagnosed ADD and what would it have been like if I knew what was wrong with me fifteen years ago? I may not have been medicated but there are a number of was to handle ADD without it. But did we even know them back then?
I often think about my fucked up life. About all the mistakes I've made and where I am because of them. It has taken me much longer then most people to figure my life and and get my shit together. I know, most of it is my own damned fault and blaming my father is just plain wrong. But I just can't help but wonder.
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OK as all of you know I never post anything that is even the least bit political or controversial… yeah right!
OK for some time now I’ve been hearing pole-iticians of the Democratic persuasion, most notably that Muslim loving Nancy Polise, old cut-run & surrender Harry Reed, and that lying ass mother-fucking John Murtha, running off at the fricking mouth, and shouting shit like, “We Wont Be SWIFT-BOATED Again!”
You know… for what passes as leaders of this nation those mother-fuckers sure are ignorant Boo.
I mean come on now… don’t any of those pompous jack asses realize that to be “Swift-boated” means to be caught in a bold faced lie…, like that fricking idiot, John Kerry, was?
Don’t those fricking idiots realize that the end result of being “Swift-boated” is having your lies made public… again like that fricking idiot, John Kerry’s lies were?
swiftboat
To bravely expose the lies and manipulations of a powerful person seeking to achieve self promotion based on a falsified personal history and thereby prevent the success of his or her deception.
I don’t guess that they do. Anyway, I found this *pointing down* and blognapped it for your reading pleasure.
It would seem that her thighness, Bitchary Clinton, is the latest casualty of swift-boating, and it was a fucking comedian, with no political ax to grind, who was traveling with her on that infamous day of bullet dodging that nailed her nasty lying ass… hum? I wonder if Sinbad is a Democrat… do any of you know Boo?
HILLARY: SWIFTBOATED!
Wed Mar 26, 7:57 PM ET
Hillary is being "swiftboated"!
She claimed that she came under sniper fire when she visited in Bosnia in 1996, but was contradicted by videotape showing her sauntering off the plane and stopping on the tarmac to listen to a little girl read her a poem.
Similarly, John Kerry's claim to heroism in Vietnam was contradicted by 264 Swift Boat Veterans who served with him. His claim to having been on a secret mission to Cambodia for President Nixon on Christmas 1968 was contradicted not only by all of his commanders -- who said he would have been court-martialed if he had gone anywhere near Cambodia -- but also the simple fact that Nixon wasn't president on Christmas 1968.
In Hillary's defense, she probably deserves a Purple Heart about as much as Kerry did for his service in Vietnam.
Also, unlike Kerry, Hillary acknowledged her error, telling the Pittsburgh Tribune-Review: "I was sleep-deprived, and I misspoke." (What if she's sleep-deprived when she gets that call on the red phone at 3 a.m., imagines a Russian nuclear attack and responds with mutual assured destruction? Oops. "It proves I'm human.")
The reason no one claims Hillary is being "swiftboated" is that the definition of "swiftboating" is: "producing irrefutable evidence that a Democrat is lying." And for purposes of her race against matinee idol B. Hussein Obama, Hillary has become the media's honorary Republican.
In liberal-speak, only a Democrat can be swiftboated. Democrats are "swiftboated"; Republicans are "guilty." So as an honorary Republican, Hillary isn't being swiftboated; she's just lying.
Indeed, instead of attacking the people who produced a video of Hillary's uneventful landing in Bosnia, the mainstream media are the people who discovered that video.
I've always wondered how a Democrat would fare being treated like a Republican by the media. Now we know.
It's such fun watching liberals turn on the Clintons! The bitter infighting among Democrats is especially enjoyable after having to listen to Democrats hyperventilate for months about how delighted they were to have so many wonderful choices for president.
Now liberals just want to be rid of the Clintons -- which is as close to actual mainstream thinking as they've been in years. So the media suddenly notice when Hillary "misspeaks," while rushing to make absurd excuses for much greater outrages by her opponent.
Liberals are even using the Slick Willy defense when Obama is caught fraternizing with a racist loon. When Bill Clinton was exposed as a philandering, adulterous, pathological liar, his defenders said that everybody is a philandering, adulterous, pathological liar.
And now, when B. Hussein Obama is caught in a 20-year relationship with a raving racist, his defenders scream that everybody is a racist wack-job.
In the Obama speech on race that Chris Matthews deemed "worthy of Abraham Lincoln," B. Hussein Obama defended Wright's anti-American statements, saying:
"For the men and women of Rev. Wright's generation, the memories of humiliation and doubt and fear have not gone away; nor has the anger and the bitterness of those years. That anger may not get expressed in public, in front of white co-workers or white friends. But it does find voice in the barbershop or around the kitchen table."
So in the speech the media are telling us is on a par with the Gettysburg Address, B. Hussein Obama casually informed us that even blacks who seem to like white people actually hate our guts.
First of all: Watch out the next time you get your hair cut by a black barber over the age of 50.
Second, Rev. Wright's world wasn't segregated.
And third, what about Wright's wanton anti-Semitism? All the liberals (including essence-besplattered Chris Matthews) have accepted Obama's defense of Wright and want us to understand Wright's "legitimate" rage over his painful youth in segregated America.
But the anti-Semitic tone of Wright's sermons is as clear as his rage against the United States. Rev. Wright calls Israel a "dirty word" and a "racist country." He denounces Zionism and calls for divestment from Israel.
In addition to videos of Rev. Wright's sermons, Obama's church also offers for sale sermons by Nation of Islam leader Louis Farrakhan, whom Rev. Wright joined on a visit to Moammar Gadhafi in Libya in 1984. Just last year, Obama's church awarded Farrakhan the Dr. Jeremiah A. Wright Jr. Trumpeter Award, saying Farrakhan "truly epitomized greatness."
What, pray tell, is the legitimate source of Wright's anti-Semitism? I believe Brother Obama passed over that issue entirely in his "conversation," even as he made the obligatory bow to Israel's status as one of our "stalwart allies." Why does crazy "uncle" Wright dislike Jews?
Will liberals contend that these remarks were "taken out of context"? Maybe Wright's church was trying to say that Farrakhan isn't great when it said he "epitomized greatness." Who knows? We weren't there.
Can liberals please educate us on the "legitimate" impulses behind Rev. Wright's Jew-baiting?
OK, so now what? Well I’m hoping against hope that someone will come along who can swift-boat that chipmunk looking McCain…, and that fucking Muslim in Christian disguise Obama.
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Am I just pissed off coming home w/no energy and K still not working? Is my apathy competing with his? He seems to have lost all inclination to get things done and look for a job. How do I light a fire under him when I'm still searching for a spark for myself? I feel like I use every last ounce of me when at work. I don't have anything left to lift him up when I get home except for thinly veiled comments/questions about his activities of the day.
I don't like the person I feel I'm becoming when I come home. I don't like the person I see him becoming. The whole situation is just upside down.
The Dr. recommended that I rest this week that we're off work. That makes sense, but the other carbuncle of a house is still waiting to get a big load of crap taken out and that won't happen if I don't arrange times to do it and accompany him there. He needs to seek professional help with a therapist and employment office or it's not going to get better. We've both got the same ADD personality, but he's unmedicated and unmotivated to seek help for it.
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