Absolutely @ MindSay

I don't have to go into work till 5 today. YES! MONDO! YATTA!

Have you ever had something so hard to say that you can't say it. Enough that it frustrates you. Like the scene in 'Liar Liar' when he trying to say the pen is red when its really blue.

All the consequences fly through your head at the instant you think you're going to say it. You get a pain in your chest that feels like its compressing your lungs to even if you do mouth it, no air will come out. That's when your heart takes over and gives you the power to say it. To share what needs to be said.

thanks for visiting my life-

Jake

omg... absolutely... wonderful!!!!

Mmkay well Asic came over again! Got here at like exactly 3?

Uh whatd we do first... did makeup... green on theOOH! I forgot to give Asic his eyeshadow gah! Oooooh I cant believe I forgot -sigh- oh well, its not going anywhere. I put purple eyeliner on Asic too. Black mascara rather than the new purple stuff I bought because the purple stuff is kinda... uh... I dunno, just weird.

Then I did his naaaaaails! i couldn't decide what color or design or anything because.. lol... I was too busy thinking about kissing! -sigh- I ended up chosing my grape nailpolish. Did a sloppy job.. couldn't concentrate... I was very disappointed.

Wellll then I went to the bathroom. I had to go upstairs because mum was taking a shower downstairs...

Lmao I let Asic wear my "try love not drugs" shirt and omfg... he looked sexy in it... chya, he should wear girl shirts more often! Plus it like fit him perfectly so that was nice!!! Jeez I cant get over how GOOD he looked in that shirt... -drool- yes yes very nice...

Well so then we laid down... and held hands of course... and talked... and I gots me some kisses :) it took me a while to get the courage to kiss him... but when I did it was great! WAY better than last time gahd last time my kisses were absolutely horrible... but it was my first kiss, I cant really expect perfection.

GOD Asic got hyper... he was like... making weird noises and kept WIGGLING! Gosh lmao! I tried to keep him still but that didn't work lol. It was worth a try. Lmao he was SO frikin hyper! I cant kiss him when hes hyper!!! Too bouncy! I was being like... totally still... I was tired... sitting like that with him always makes me really calm for some reason. We held both hands again :-D I love that... cept my right hand... it always gets sweaty... blah gross... I don't like that right hand of mine!

We laid there for a super long time... I didn't want to mooooove... I got the courage to kiss him =) I was a little discouraged because of last time. But this time was waaaay better. After a while of kissing him on the nose I finally got the courage to kiss him on the lips =-o. Thank goodness he has the courage to do it first lol. After a bit I wasn't even nervous at all. Lots and LOTS of kisses!!! Ooooh yes, heavenly indeed! It was like... kiss after kiss after kiss after kiss I swear we kissed like 50 times! And I loved every one :-D Aw Asic said he loved me! Oooh that made me so happy... so happy... it was perfect... and I said I loved him too :) which of course I do! Ever so much. I felt so loved today -sigh-

Like the last half hour I was sooo comfortable. He like ran his fingers through my hair... which I absolutely love... and held my hand with hisother hand... it was sooo nice... and our kisses were getting good too :) Gosh, that was my favorite part... -sigh- but then he had to go. It always gets good towards the end! Why is that! Jeez, I REALLY didn't want to move... I was having so much fun... and I was so happy...

:( I'm not going to see Asic again for like a week because he has to go to his mommy's... -cries- and we're going to miss our 1 year anniversary! Noooooooo! That means next time has to be SUPER awesome!!! To make up for the time he was gone and our anniversary. So next time should be absolutely Xcore. Lol... lets see... am I missing anything... lmao oh yeah Asic did this weird thing... where he like... gets snot on his tongue and he showed me! Ewwww gross Asic! Lol you and your snotty kisses lmao. Yeah yeah that was gross lol... today my allergies were bad and I had trouble breathing through my nose -sigh- and I don't like breathing through my mouth.

Kitten business... Fluffers got fixed. Thats probably why she was gone for so long. That was moms "best case scenario" but gosh shes SO thin! OMFG she's like nothing but bones!!!! Thats the skinniest I've ever seen an animal. Yeah... way skinny... stick your hand between her shoulder bones skinny. I've gotten really attacthed to Echo... moreso than I was before... hes so loving and sweet. Me and Asic's kitty ^.^ I still love Akuma, hes just not really friendly... Suki... gosh lol hes so cute he always licks my toes. So playful... and so STUPID gahd Suki's got a frikin death wish, I swear. OKAY! I'm DONE! Way tired.