777 @ MindSay 
Well today is 777, and I guess that means its supposed to be a very lucky day, because 7 is supposably a lucky number (but 7 is only a lucky number because when you are rolling 2 dice it is the most likely number pop up). To me though, its not a lucky day at all. Nothing has changed in my mood at all. I still feel like a worthless peice of shit that doenst deserve anyone, and deserves all the pain that comes my way. I did some thinking last night though, and i relaized something: for the last 2 years ive been changing my main social group constantly, and I've lost many, many people along the way. Some people ive just gradullary separated from, a couple people have made me so frustrated that ive pushed them away, and some people have gotten frustrated with me and completely pushed me away. However, when it comes to the people that ive gradually separated from, some of them hate me as much as the people that ive frustrated. I honestly don't know what ive done to all these people, but I wish I knew what it was so I can try to improve myself, because being hated this much causes alot of my pain. It also makes me afraid, because I don't know what I would do if I were to be pushed out of the group I am in now. This group makes me happier than anything when I'm with them, and to lose them would be to lose everything. But for now, I'm going to try and be the best person I can be and try not to upset people
Anyways if anyone wants to read this, heres a poem i created last night and finished this afternoon
Never Good Enough
Too tired to sleep
Because into my world you creep
Everyone seems to fade away
And just us two are left to stay...
...Cheek to cheek in each other's arms
You won me over with your charms
We locked lips in the dark of midnight
You made it seem like for you I was right
With your soft kiss and warm embrace
Time seemed to lose its fast pace
And every negative thought and tear
You made them all disappear
But it didn't take long till you let me down
And there returned my heartbroken frown
And now I'm left...
Too depressed to cry
Because no matter now hard I try
I'll never get your unconditional love
Because I'll never rise above...
...Above the greatness of that other girl
In your mind she's a diamond and I'm not even a pearl
I was just a mistake in your game
And now I'll never be the same
I fell hard for you
But everything was too good to be true
Happiness is something I'll never own
I'll always stand alone
By: Kristal St. Jean
Date: July 7, 2007.
Any comments about the poem?
-:(Kristal:(
P.S. The song If I Was Your Vampire By Marilyn Manson is how i feel..i couldnt put it in better words myself. Heres the lyrics if anyone wnats to check it out: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/marilynmanson/ifiwasyourvampire.html
Good. Bad. Mysterious. The number 666 and the number 777 are ones Christians, mystics, magicians, and even some Pagans attribute special meaning to. It is assumed by many that #666 is all about the Devil and those same folks consider #777 to be the number of God. No matter what side of the spiritual fence you're on, I'm sure you've wondered what the big deal is over these numbers. It also begs to be said that most people don't have a clue about the true meaning behind these numbers. Even those who swear to their God that what they think is true, have not done the research or collected the historical symbolic information about the folklore of these numbers with an un-biased nature. In this article, I will attempt to try to narrow the meanings down to come up with an educated guess about the hidden meaning and connection between these numbers and propose my own prophetic vision about the psychic vibrations behind July 7, 2007.
First, why is #777 so special? And why is #666 supposed to be evil?
The following assumptions concern the number seven hundred and seventy seven:
* The Christian concept of God created the Heavens and the Earth in seven days
* Any number in the power of three is considered a "trinity" number and trinities are considered holy
* If 666 is bad, then 777 must be good since it's more than a triple six
What makes the number 666 the supposed evil counterpart of number 777:
* The number 666 is the identifying Number of the Beast found in the Book of Revelation 13:18 (King James translation): "Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six."
* 666 is believed to literally refer to the Roman Emperor Nero whose name, written in Aramaic and valued at 666 using the Hebrew numerology of Gematria. Nero was often regarded as a Beast by many.
* 666 is representative of man being created on the sixth day according to the story of Creation in the Bible and making this a trinity number it has been suggested that it is the number of man succumbing to nature as a beast.
* The fear of the number 666 is called hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia (try saying that six times!) and supersition surrounding the number 666 is the cause for many unfortunate accidents and events in the Western world.
* In other cultures, such as the Chinese, 666 is considered very lucky and welcomed as a good omen because in their language 666 sounds like "things going smoothly!"
* 666 has been the inspiration for a lot of great heavy metal songs.
* 666 and 777 have been especially lucky numbers for Aleister Crowley, the famous Occultist who often referred to himself as The Beast because the letters of his name in Hebrew sum up 666. The number 777 is also the title of a book Crowley wrote.
* 666 is NOT officially used by REAL Satanists because to use that number is to be siding with the Christians about the Messiah. Jesus Christ is the true author of the number 666 (in other words, he's the guy who brought it up in the first place) not Lucifer. Real Satanists do not use 666 to mock God and those posers who use the number to intimidate other people are just fools.
(for more crap on 666 refer to my post from last year: Are You Ready for 666?
The real truths behind the number 777:
* 777 represents luck. To get these numbers on a slot machine in a casino means money! (duh!)
* 777 comes from the Kabbalistic diagram of the Tree of Life; a mystical concept used to represent the nature of God and Creation. On the Tree of Life there are 10 Sephirot (enumerations that are the ten attributes that God created through which he can manifest in the physical and metaphysical universe) and 22 paths which interconnect the various Sephirot. Following these paths and Sephirot is a mystical concept called the flaming sword which has the Gematria (numerological value applied to each letter in the Hebrew alphabet that, once calculated correctly, can give hidden meaning to each Hebrew word) of 777. The Hebrew letter zayin has the number 7. Zayin means sword. The number 777 literally means 'sword, sword, sword'. There are many other words and phrases that equate 777, many of them not very holy.
* "777 and other Qabalistic writings" is a collection of papers written by Aleister Crowley. It was edited and introduced by Dr. Israel Regardie (founder of the Golden Dawn), and is a reference book based on the Hermetic Qabalah which also forms the basis of the Western Magical tradition that influenced just about every occult movement formed since the 19th century. The title refers to a lightning flash descending down the diagrammatic worlds of the Tree of Life looking like three "7"s.
* In numerological divination, 777 is: 7+7+7 = 21 and 2+1 = 3. 7 is a number of introspection, planning, invention, and insight. It is most often related to religion because of that root meaning. A number that appears as a double or triple, like 777 or 33, is considered a "power" number and the root meaning of the single digit number has been increased. The number 777 is particularly auspicious because it triples the power of seven, however just like the meanings of Tarot cards, every number has both positive and negative vibrations. The negative side of the number 777 is pure escapism, introversion, and strict religious tradition. Since 777 equals a 21 which equals a 3, the number 777 has a foundation in creativity, action, and expression. The Karmic Challenge of 777 is 21 which is one to successfully obtain knowledge about the world and its people.
* No where in the Holy Bible is there a mentioning of the number 777 representing God. The number seven is significant and powerful, but tripling that number doesn't increase the original meaning of seven in the Biblical sense.
My intuitive feelings about 777:
*** Based on the information I've compiled, and on my own intuitive impressions, it seems that the seventh day of the seventh month of the seventh year will be one that many, on the surface, will consider lucky, but in truth the numerlogical vibrations of this number will bring significant challenges and spiritual quests. People will be either be abandoning or adopting extreme fundamentalist ways of thinking -- the challenge is holding on to tradition while also trying to be open to new ways, a particularly tough balance to achieve for newlyweds who have chosen this day to be their luckiest one but will soon find it a vibration that will bring tough choices and challenges dealing with fidelity.
*** Religion will be a deep factor in the lives of all -- whether or not you believe or practice a religion, the way others believe and think has the potential to free the mind or oppress it. More "fluffy" thinkers will believe that the number 777 is about angelic forces and that this day will mark a significant milestone in the spiritual salvation of the world. However, I tend to see it as a much darker indication that religious fundamentalists in the world will continue to wage their wars in the name of God to the point where more and more people will begin to reject religions that ask followers to committ divine vengence and ritual suicide. The "true" apocolypse will be one that ends the belief systems that many zealots depend on to avoid reality.
*** The true Anti-Christ will be using the number 777 as his trademark and will most likely proclaim himself to be a Christian!
Whether or not you believe in the hidden meanings of numbers, you can't deny the cultural effect they have on people of all walks of life. My other, more mundane, prediction for 7-7-07 is that it'll end up being another ordinary day like 6-6-06 was last year!
Here's the astrological forecast for today's vibration:
The enthusiastic Aries Moon forms a first quarter square with the sensitive Cancer Sun, emphasizing the difference between how we feel and what we express. We react emotionally, yet withhold any outward display. A spiritual Sun-Neptune biquintile can be confusing as it encourages us to further detach from the real world. Nevertheless, our imagination is quite rich with metaphysical treasures if only we are willing to explore these hidden realms.