Today was another one of those days where you wonder if everyone is out of their minds. My students were off their rocker today. One student didn't show up to school. His mom called and said she was at home with him on suicide watch. This kid is so messed up that it makes me ill to think about it. His mother is afraid of him. His father was pissed off because I called him the day before about his son's behavior. He said we disturbed him at work when he was in the middle of something very important. Yeah, it's all about priorities. My younger 5th grade group are constantly picking on each other, but today they seemed even more cruel. I ended up giving most of them a detention assignment.
I had a nice dinner with my friend tonight. We went to our usual meeting place, a restaurant called Razzoo's. It's a good Cajun restaurant. Of course crawfish étouffée was the order of the day. My friend got her usual crawfish bisque. (Andreux, sweetie, I know your mouth is watering.) My friend showed me pictures of her two children. It's a shame but, I've never seen her daughter and the child is nearly a year old. She is BEAUTIFUL! Her son is also a cutie patootie and he is getting so big. I can't believe he's almost three. Time sure does fly.
Anyone else have a hard time with forgiveness? I know all of the spiritual ramifications of not forgiving someone, but dang sometimes you just can't let go that easily. I know forgiveness is for you and not for them, yada, yada, yada, but I'm a sensitive person and I tend to constantly give people the benefit of a doubt even after they give me glimpses of their true nature. By the time they do something completely despicable, I feel utterly betrayed. When I'm betrayed I tend to be vicious. I think it's because I feel like I've done nothing to deserve the betrayal or the total destruction of the trust I've built in them. I'm a fighter by nature so my first instinct in this case is to go for the jugular. I envy people who can move beyond betrayal without feeling the driving need to retalliate. I've been better about it though, it the past I've been horrible.
I actually attended a 10 week bible study on the Gospel According to Judas. Primetime did a show about the Gospel of Judas tonight. The class was about learning to forgive. The focus of the text that went along with the class was that Jesus would have forgiven Judas so we should be able to forgive those who've hurt us. It emphasized that it isn't easy. How would you forgive someone who's molested you or raped you? What about someone who's caused the death of a loved one? It was a good class and I learned a lot, but I think I needed another 2 to 4 weeks of study or at least a follow up class. :P
