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This is the year I defeat my enemies. It is not the year I turn into a geek or lose my intelligence. It is not the year I come out of the closet so that everyone will think I'm wierd. I'm gay but I'm not interested in acting feminime or in some other bizaar fashion so I can make some kind of statement about it. If anything I want people to understand that I'm no different than they are. I'm a perfectly normal guy. I just have sex with other gay people from time to time. It's not like this is what defines me or my life. It really has nothing to do with anything. I can't think of a single worthwhile reason for anyone to hold it against me. It's my life. I'll do with it what I want and I don't care how ignorant you are about gay people or what they're like. I really don't. You're just a bunch of fucking idiots with some kind of point to make that you can't really defend because it makes no sense whatsoever. Most people realize that and very few individuals have mistreated me for it but those who have deserve to be mistreated even worse than they've mistreated me. Then there are the Christians and various other religious groups that consider homosexuality far worse than it really is. I mean there are a lot of ways to sin in this world. I'm not saying homosexuality isn't a sin. According to Le-way it is but it falls under the category of lesser sins because it does not necessarily cause harm to ones self or another. People should be more concerned about promiscuity for instance (straight, gay or otherwise). I fail to see what these religious nuts think is so terrible about being gay. Take the gay marriage controversy for example. Same sex marriages would be good for the very same reasons marriage has always been good for society. It encourages love and commitment while discouraging promiscuity and the spread of sexually transmitted diseases. How is that bad? So far as I'm concerned the only thing that makes homosexuality so bad is the prejudice of those most responsible for starting the worlds religions. It has nothing to do with Gods opinion and probably never will. It is what it is. It's not any worse than that! Enough said!
Gary O
The fact that I may have a 36 year-old half brother named Justin Michael running around is SORTA kinda freaking me out a little.
Well, I'm not freaking out as much as....WEIRD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Hello, everybody! Sorry I've been offline for nearly a week or so, but I got really sick a few days before Xmas with a very scary stomach flu. The flu came on very suddenly during a snow storm we had a week ago. It was terrible! I had to take off from work and felt like I was letting everyone down because they had to cover for me during the holiday rush. So between trying to get well, and worrying about how I was going to make up the hours, the last thing I could do was break away from the bathroom to answer emails and what-not. And I had SO MUCH to talk about, so much going on in my head. If I had a lap top, I would've been all over this blog to share my thoughts while I struggled to get my body to cooperate with me.
On Dec. 26, I visit my Momma:
When I felt better, I visited my mother in the nursing home. The last place I like to be is the nursing home. Too many lost souls there and I get to feeling overwhelmed. Many people in my family are intuitively sensitive like that, so my mom understands, but I can't imagine what it's like for her. But she's gotten to the point where it's hard for her to remember things, like my favorite colors or scents or interests. Her Yule presents for me were a couple of Christian romance novels which, because of her state of mind and condition of her body, I feel obligated to read because I also don't want to lie to her and say I haven't read them after accepting them as gifts. Know how that feels? In any case, any visit from me is a gift to her, so I really shouldn't feel all that bad.
Big Thanks for all the Votes!!!
I want to take this moment, if I haven't already, to thank everyone for nominating and voting for me as best blog designer and best blog design. You know I don't do the things I do on Mindsay for praise, because it's praise enough that I see you all using and customizing my designs, but I have to say thank you over and over again because, as they all say, I wouldn't have done it all if it weren't for you all!
Why do I need to like Family Guy?
I don't care if it's the no. 1 show in America, someone needs to tell my brother to stop trying to convince me to like Family Guy. I can't stand that show. I hate it as much as I hate The Simpsons. I can't tell you why. I just don't like cartoon shows like that, but yet I love Jackass and the Venture Bros. Go figure. I guess we all have our personal tastes. So, Miya, remember that dream you had about seeing me argue with a 300 pound man? Well, that's my brother. You think Andrew is bad? My brother is so pig headed about his tastes in entertainment, he won't stop until he converts me to the Church of Family Guy. Jeez. I need to keep hitting him in the pimple, me thinks.
Dec. 30th 2006: the day to celebrate ME!
Oh, and today, if I haven't mentioned it already, is my birthday. At 7:10pm Central Standard Time, I turn 36 years old. It was once predicted to me by a palm reader that I would not live to my 36th birthday. I've always had that in the back of my mind, "what if I don't live past my 36th birthday?" Of course this prediction was made back when I was 19 and when I was 19 the age of 36 seemed really, really old. For nearly over a decade I spent most of my time worrying that I hadn't done enough in my life, like I was in a race to fulfull my wishes for myself by the age of 30, let alone 36. I've since taken it much more easy with myself and have had more psychics predict things for me, but for some stupid reason the age of 36 has always stuck in my mind as a "be all do it all" year for me. My lifeline is much longer than the age of 36, with a slight break repaired by a "box" symbol over the age of 36, so I interpret that as being more of a sign that my health will change this year. My greatest weakness is laziness and apathy currently, perhaps once I get past that, I'll be better.
The Tarot card for me this year is "The Wheel of Fortune" -- that means lots of changes and chances.
Who knows what the future will hold? Here I am fretting over turning 36, just wait til I turn 40. *shivers*
For now I'm content to let my troubles transform into wonders. I'll be back!
...and, uh, yeah, it kinda sucks that a Presidental funeral and the execution of an Iraqi dictator both happened to fall on my birthday this year. Weird.
À double tour (1959) Directed by Claude Chabrol, so of course it was fabulous.
Amour l'après-midi, L' (1972) AKA Chloe in the Afternoon (I was on an Eric Rohmer kick this month)
Arizona Dream (1993) My first Emir Kusturica film. How I liked it!
Baby Face (1933) Barbara Stanwyck!
Barton Fink (1991) second viewing
Beau-père (1981) Actually I only got thru half of this.
Belle et la bête, La (1946) Now I see what everyone's talking about.
Bonnes femmes, Les (1960) Oui! Another Claude Chabrol film.
Brokeback Mountain (2005) Ang Lee was supposed to be at this showing. He wasn't. Jake & Heath were. And they refused to "reenact" the movie. The kissing part, anyway. Jake sang "Fever Night" for the crowd. A few bars, anyway.
Buffet froid (1979) A dark comedy. VERY dark. And French too.
Camille (1921)
Camille (1936)
Chamade, La (1968) From Francoise Sagan's book. With Catherine Denueve.
Choristes, Les (2004) Extremely good. And touching too. I bawled.
Ciociara, La (1960) AKA Two Women w/ Sophia Loren.
Dentellière, La (1977) AKA The Lacemaker
Dom za vesanje (1988) AKA Time of the Gypsies Emir Kusturica
East of Eden (1955)
Eraserhead (1977) Very strange. See the very bottom of this post.
Final Destination 3 (2006) Perfect Valentine's Day movie.
Genou de Claire, Le (1970) AKA Claire's Knee (Eric Rohmer)
Giant (1956)
Good Night, and Good Luck. (2005) w/Writer Grant Haslov who claims that getting drunk is the key to writing a successful screenplay.
In the French Style (1963) Jean Seberg double feature at UCLA
Jacquot de Nantes (1991)
Journal d'un curé de campagne (1951) Diary of a Country Priest
Lilith (1964) second viewing Jean Seberg double feature at UCLA
Ma nuit chez Maud (1969) AKA My Night At Maud’s (Eric Rohmer)
Manderlay (2005) Over the top movie about slavery by a director (von Trier) who has reportedly never set foot in America. Very offensive content! With exceptional performances by almost everyone but Bryce Dallas Howard.
Night Nurse (1931) Barbara Stanwyck again!
Roma, città aperta (1945) AKA Open City
Route de Corinthe, La (1967) AKA Who's Got the Black Box? (yet another Claude Chabrol film)
The Sheltering Sky (1990) This movie was playing at a revival house this month, but I was too cheap and rented the movie for free at the library. I made up for it by seeing a Barbara Stanwyck double feature at the end of the month. See Baby Face & Night Nurse.
The Three Burials of Melquiades Estrada (2005)
Vic (2006)
Winter Passing (2005) This wasn’t as great as I had hoped, but I wanted to catch it.
Eraserhead:
Now compare Jack Nance's hairstyle to the Country Priest:
I agree. Too freaky. They could be the same guy. But they aren't.
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