The night before last I took a Hinder CD and a Disturbed CD, hopped in the car, opened the sun roof, drove to Bel Air and blasted "Indestructible" and "Inside the Fire" among other amazing songs.  I forgot how much I loved going out at night.  Mark was at work and for some reason, I feel very uneasy being at home without him... Not super very... I'd just rather be out...  Even if it's by myself.  Which is okay. :)  Going to Kohl's was a lot of fun... I didn't get much, just a few bras that actually seem to fit me (YAY) and some pj pants and boxers for Mark.  He seems to love them, and that makes me happy. :)  I don't get out too much, unless it's going to work.  And it just seemed... free-ing.  Just going out... doing what I love to do (smart shopping at Kohl's. ;) )  and I even got to have half of a guilt-free cigarette.

That reminds me... I think someone swiped my cigs yesterday.  They're GONE!  Either that or I left them on the bench... probably the latter.  God damn it.  But I need to quit... So does Mark.  And as soon as he starts his chemo on tuesday that'll be it for me... I  need to be strong for him... and I can't wave a cigarette in front of his face when he's sick and dying to have one and he knows he can't... or just doesn't have the stomach for it but he still wants one.

I close at Target tonight... which isn't that much of a problem.  2-10:30... typical close.  Same as last night.  Hopefully tonight will be better though.  Last night was just short of insanity on the front end. hahah  It'll be fun, I think.  It should be soon as soon as it gets darker, and there will be plenty of people in costume. :)