So I am retracting all previous blogs about how amazing the next few months were going to be cuz they have suck suck sucked.... For starters about 4 months ago I ended a relationship to venture into another, the relationship I ended was over the course of two years we had been "seeing" eachother but only actually saw each other three times over the course of that relationship because of him being in the army I have no complaints about the relationship only the way i ended it was stupid and naive ending it for a guy would turn out to be fucking two other girls behind my back as he proceeded to lead me on and feed me lines and all the drama that unfolded after he slowly stopped talking to me or returning my calls and finally someone spilled to me what was going on... but i'm over that now but since these events my social life has become a trainwreck I am slowly destroying everything i had and turning it into a pile of rubble.... it's the end off all i know.... I wish he would forgive me for my stupidity, i know we didn't have the best relationship in the world but I love him and it kills me to know he hates me... but there is nothing i can do but move on or further destroy myself threw drinking and random casual sex.... so be it i have condemed myself to this life.......
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