Yesterday i said some pretty hurtful things to one of my best friends. I hate myself for saying it. I never thought that i would be the one to hurt him, but i did and when he hurts i hurt too. It's like i feel his pain. When something's wrong, i don't even have to ask, i just know.

I'm afraid he's going to stop opening up to me. He's like a closed book. For years i fought to get in, i never gave up and eventually he let me in, now he trusts me. When he's upset it feels like i'm being stabbed in the heart.

I just want him to be happy, he has so much potential. He has no idea how smart he is, he's the only person who understands me. He puts on this act that he's all confident but really he's a lost soul waiting for someone to reach him.

We have both been through the same kind of things, his dad left like mine did, so when i talk to someone with the perfect little family and they tell me that they know how i feel and how they're "sorry" it makes me mad because they have no idea what it's like. But Jamie, i can relate to him, he tells me that it's going to be okay and i believe him because i trust him.