wow. So I got back tonight and Gordon left me a message and so talked to him and omgosh did God completely speak through him tonight. Wow, God. So Gordon was like go spend time with God and so i signed off and spent one amazing hour on my face with my bible praying and reading and omgosh. can i just say I feel so much better now that I completely poured out my heart to God. I feel like I rededicated myself to him tonight or something. I just know that i want to serve him and get back on my feet again. Wow. All You need is Christ to come and hold you and pull you up and tell you its all going to be okay. Wow, God. Thank you for my friendship with Gordon and him stretching me in many areas of my life. He told me he'll always be here for me and that he cares so much about me and that means alot. but so many guys have said that to me but i know Gordon is a spiritual brother in Christ and he really truely genuinely cares. I cant believe how crazy tonight was and how God used him to get to me. Oh God I love you so much. Thank you for bringing me back to you. Thank you for loving me even when I choose my sin over you you still come and pull me back to you and I think you God for doing that. Thank You God for the plan you have for my life and I promise God I'll get it right *this time around* May I wait on you and continue to heal and may you continue speak through me and use me for my ministry and may you just continue to hold me when I need it the most. Oh God I love you. I'm so glad I can count on you to always being there for me even when I screw up. I love you God. Oh God. Oh God. Oh God. i love you <33
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