I IMed Andrew last night and he starts off with "Hello Heart Breaker" Well thanks. i guess.  I gave him different senerios and we came to the conclusion if I dated him, being a long distance relationship, if another girl came along thats there where he is, he'd dump me for her. Mhm. thats wonderful.  I said, "yeah but if your certain its who God has for you, you wouldnt think twice about someone else even if the oppertunity came up."  and he said that for a while he thought I was the one God has for him until i told him i dont want a relationship right now so now he says he doesnt know.  Okay to me thats dumb.  If you KNOW someone is THE ONE then you dont the next minute give up and let her go just cause the girl isnt ready for a relationship.  So all of this has proven to him that he'll never have me because I will never be the first and only girl in his life worth to make it work.

 

I told him I'm sick of short term relationships.  Really am.  My heart cant take it anymore.  I just want the next guy I'm with to BE that one God has for me.  I cant have another heart break. I cant.  After Ryan, no way will i go through that again.  I'm done. I'm so done. And I will be a stubburn little brat and turn down any guy unless i feel in my heart Hes the one. With Andrew, I feel confusion and no peace in my heart at all. So, hes not it for me.  Now everyone in his family can stop trying to get us dating cause i dont want to.  He's just not it. HES NOT IT!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

 

What I'm also looking for in my husband is a guy that thinks my singing voice is beautiful. and Andrew, I sing worship songs with him all the time and he hasnt said a thing.  So then i was like yeah uh huh not it. notttttttt ittttttt.  i KNOW for a fact God has called me to worship.  and my voice I sing to God with is pretty much important to me.  so I'd love it for my husband to think i sing amazing since i sing 24/7.

 

Maybe I'm still sad that Ryan isnt it.  Maybe I'm still sad that that boy doesnt care about me.  Maybe I've been pretending to be strong the past 2 weeks.  I think I'm deffinately ready to move on but not ready to date a guy.  You know? Its hard when I thought Ryan was amazing when i dated him.  Cut deep when he let go.

 
   

 


 
 
DarkSalem on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
I feel that last paragraph. It hurts when people let go. 
xlilunique147x on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
yeah but i think i'm really over Ryan though. let it go. maybe cause everyone around me is hooking up and finding THE ONE i just in a sucky mood. heh
DarkSalem on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
That can do it. XD
masterstream on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
I think you should do a video blog with you singing.  And if Andrew would dump you for some girl who happens to be in close proximity to him then he didn't and couldn't really love you.
xlilunique147x on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
seriously. darn right. did you ever answer my question what you read on my blog? how much you know?
supertree on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
It's hard when people let go...and hard to wait for God's timing. I'm trying to do the same and not let hurt get to me and turn to God.  I wish you the best of luck   From just this blog, doesn't seem like he'd make a good husband. I hope you find your prince in the right time
xlilunique147x on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
Thank you. Yeah in the right time.  I dont think it is the right time now.

I'd love a Jesus loving man.  and I know Andrew is so madly in love with God but a part of me just doesnt think he's THE ONE no matter how amazing he is.  I just think God has someone better in mind like, "Yeah you see him. Brittany. I'm gonna give you a man thats even more amazing than him."
supertree on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
I know, I'm looking for a good Christian man as well.  And God just doesn't think it's the right time for me either I'm guessing since He took a really good man from me.  I'm just trying my best to keep trust.  Because yeah, like you said, He's got something better in store.
xlilunique147x on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
heck yes! may i ask how old are you?
supertree on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
just turned 21.
xlilunique147x on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
yay. finally someone around my age thats christian. cant find that barely. i'm 19 going on 20 in a few months here.
supertree on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
hah...yes, I know what you mean, I don't have many friends that are Christian, especially on here.  Which is hard when they give their opinions on things that just go against how I look at things. I turned 21 in april, so yes not too far apart at all!
xlilunique147x on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
yeah true. i know i have a friend that things christian relationships how we view that is "taboo" its hard for them to relate to where we're coming from cause their in the darkness.
supertree on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
Yeah, I had people saying that I should just go and move in with my last boyfriend because he had to move 2500 miles away. As if it's an easy thing to do or even a right thing to do in a Christian relationship. As hard as it is to let go, I had to follow whats right to God first.
xlilunique147x on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
thats right!! thats true.  not a good thing to move in with a boyfriend in a christian relationship. smart choice
supertree on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
Thanks. Nice to have someone actually say it was a good choice. A hard one, but if God has it in my future it will work out. I'm just working really hard to trust him that its whats best for me.

 

But I'm off to bed. Fun to chat with you though!

xlilunique147x on
Re: Some day my prince will come.
okay good night

 
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