I know it's possible to lose track when feeling the same way - I had that with tiredness - you forget what to compare it to after long enough (feelings can be shades of grey anway so it's hard to define). Sometimes reflecting on what state someone's in can make them feel worse so maybe it's better this way - but if you don't actually feel it, I wouldn't say you are, maybe you still have the old habits that came about from being depressed in the first place, and do things the same way now as before, but if you feel different inside, the two things nolonger have any bearing on each other. Maybe if you feel contented now other things can be re-evaluated (like I should be looking back into driving now that I feel more capable, but I'm a lazy git lol)

Sounds like you need a rest - don't push yourself to perform (regarding ambition, remembering, thinking) - wanting to be yourself does sound a lot like wanting to rest, I know when I was at uni I wanted to be myself to excersize the freedom that was being taken away by the burden of study. I think motivation, etc will come naturally when you want something different, and want any luxuries, etc, but it can't be forced, it'll come with enough rest, if that is a lot of rest, so be it. Does it really matter anyway? - why want to be anything other than yourself? I know that my family wants me to be motivated, which makes me feel pressured, but it's got to be for the right reasons, otherwise it's kinda trapping to feel expected to keep pushing yourself - unfortunatly at uni I didn't have a choice. Long term we all need to give our minds rest otherwise they eventually sieze up and refuse to cooperate, even if you're not working maybe you're still pressuring yourself.

Certainly don't worry about depression, I think we can fade in and out of it (and other feelings) quite often - like the tide. Perhaps though something is on your mind? - subconciously even, maybe you're not yet aware.

Yeah, there is stuff on my mind. I'm worried about going back for those other doctors visits to get rid of these warts. I'm worried that I might've failed one of the tests to get my GED, just worried about a lot of stuff. But you figure, I've been out of school without a real schedule or job for almost 5 months - I think it's getting to me. I think I need a schedule. 

I hope those things go well, they will all be over though one day, if you think work will help, you can try that, otherwise maybe you just need longer without a schedule to not need it - because you've been in education all your life up till then, by comparison to 14 or so years, 5 months isn't that long (whatever people say), so maybe you're still in the old system in your mind. I didn't start work at all till I was just turned 19

Really? You didn't start work until then? That makes me feel better. I thought I was the only one who hadn't had a job until I was over 18. 

yep, i was scared of it by how my parents kept saying how horrible it is, but really it's completely better than education - you can just go into autopilot (once you know what you're doing), you have to be able to take orders all the time (just like home!), and can't make most decisions myself without asking the higher ups, but you won't have homework or exam pressure (at least not for most jobs), and try not to let boredom register, or if you do, you've got to be able to fight your case for something better.

There's more that I still haven't done even now that most people younger than me have - to most people these would be big things, that i've already told you - so you have achieved more than me on some fronts certainly, I've learnt not to care - either you fix something or accept it, maybe it'll change but I might as well not let it bother me for now. Long term maybe I'm better off not depending on stuff