life...

taking it one day at a time seems so hard, everyone wants to try to predict their outcomes... i think i'm starting to grow out of a certain phase in life, wanting to be loved. i have everything i need, i'm just spoiled... i am so lucky to have a really great ex-boyfriend, still working on some issues of course.

on another note, my job is going good, from here to the end of november, all my checks are MINE!!! i have no payments. I don't want to become an adult yet, i am sooooo not ready for those freaken payments. I'll have my man do that for me :)

i'm so freaken happy on the inside, and only i know why!!! yay!!! a sense of warmth has overcome me since about last week, and it feels too good to be true...i told the ex, and he's happy too!!! yay us!!! we're awesome, i wonder if we'll ever look back and say "what the fuck were we thinking???" but for now all is good, i just wish it could be like this more often. o well that's what life is for, to live and learn and repeat.

i love my babe!!! he's awesome...it's just sad that he's so far away...but some day, i'll have him by my side!!!