Logic so inflexible...

Causally connectible
Yet nothing is invincible.
If we share this nightmare
Then we can dream
Spiritus mundi...

Today as I take a break from all that which I was doing, I have the feeling that I may be out of synch with my surroundings - a stranger in a strange land so to speak. I feel as if at this moment I do not belong where I am, that I should be somewhere far away doing something far different that what I'm doing at this moment though what that is, I do not have the slightest idea. So being that I am out of phase today, I shall write much as I always do though today it all feels somewhat out of step with this reality...

Strange it is that this world is as it is. Imagine the infinite number of coincidences that have lead to me typing this miraculous piece on a device that my ancestors could have never dreamed of. Just for me to be alive at this time in this place is a miracle. Everything that surrounds me is miraculous if only because one simple twist of fate, one choice never made, one atom not exactly correct, would have change everything that I know if I was here to know it. And yet here I am a continuous stream from the Big Bang to the very moment that I touched the keys to type this word and it all happened just as it had so I could look about me and marvel at all that is around me...

And what if all is not as it should be? How would an observer in the midst of this world know if something was wrong in this world? How could one tell if this reality was not meant to be?

I remember seeing a program on time travel recently where it was stated that if an individual left this time to venture to another either past or present that they would be permanently removed from this time line and become part of another. In other words, if he or she left the time line where I am typing this to go back and eliminate Hitler before he had a chance to take power, the time line where I am will continue along on its merry way minus the person who left, but the time where the individual found themselves working to stop a World War would be forever altered by the addition of the new soul. It is nearly impossible for the human mind to grasp the concept of multiple time lines for this reality. We are so focused on all we perceive that we cannot make the leap to understand that which is beyond our scope...

The same holds true of religion, we can never fully grasp that which is beyond our reality. It is a struggle to even admit that there are things that we will never understand for the mind of humans is limited in what in can grasp. It's a struggle that Jacob would understand far more than I ever could. It's a struggle that I faced all my life - My Private Israel. I struggle daily to grasp all that I cannot understand, and I know for the most part it is a war that I cannot win though at times I feel that I have the battle, in the end I will feel the defeat on a very personal level...

But I keep going; I keep on tilting my personal windmills for I know of no other way to live my life. This is who I am and I cannot change that fact. And so I sit here telling the world of my adventures, feeling that I am out of synch with the rest of my surroundings, but in no way will I ever stop on this time line that I find myself upon for stopping is not an option that I have been given. I will continue, and the world that I can perceive around me will continue until this timeline reaches the point where it ends...

This is the Word of the AntiCrust...

Praise be ye who Read the Word for ye are Blessed amongst humans...