EDIT; "billy" is tyler, from my last post. apparently, i did say his name.
it has been about
583684358634856834 years
since i posted on this thing.
so long, in fact,
that i do not remember the font i was using
at the time of my last post.
my apologies.
last night, i got..
well, a bit suicidal.
just a bit
so i wrote all my letters
and all that other stuff
but i didn't do anything,
because i have to stay alive
for the one i love.
his name?
let's call him "gerard"
he's gay, of course
all the good ones are ;D
buttttt...
i love him
not really that kind of love
more a best friend kind of love
and i just recently found out
that he is, in fact,
bulimic.
that's about my eighth friend that's bulimic,
ya know?
well, actually, you don't
because i haven't told you that
but anyway,
i was really surprised.
because, yeah, he's skinny and stuff
but i didn't know it was that serious
and he's always been the one to tell ME everything's okay
but we had to switch roles when i found out.
it's really horrible
because i LOVE this boy with all my heart
and he's so amazing,
how can he do that to himself?
and my ex-boyfriend.
oh, lord.
i love him to death.
STILL.
& i can't remember if i've said his name or not
so..let's call him "billy"
"billy" has a new girlfriend
or, had
they broke up.
anyway, billy told me he liked..."jessica"
while he and i were "going out" or whatever
and i, being monstrously shy,
told him to just go out with her
because i couldn't even talk to him
so he got mad at me
and blocked me
and within two days
was completely in love with "jessica"
so i hated her for a while
until "billy" asked me to go out with him
while he was going out with "jessica"
like...
AT THE SAME TIME.
not a threesome or whatever,
but he would just go out with both of us
and i'm not going to abandon what i think it right
just because some guy i'm in love with
can't choose between some other chick and me
so i said no.
and he said okay, whatever, you know,
and all was fine
but then
they broke up
and he asked me to go out with him
and, being my obsessive self,
i was like
OMFGGG YESSS!!11!!!111!!!!!11////!!!!
well, not really,
but still.
and then he tells me
that we can only go out for about a week,
because then he's got to go out with "jessica" again
so i just said
"then why bother? if you're just going to choose your ex-girlfriend over me anyway, then what's the point?"
he blocked me.
and then i talked to "jessica"
i apologized to her
and told her that "billy" told me he loved me while they were going out
and she said she didn't like that
so she broke up with him to go out with her ex-boyfriend
who is a REALLY nice guy
so i thought maybe "billy" might want to talk things over with me.
no such luck.
i was incredibly amazed and just so over-joyed
[detect the sarcasm there?]
to learn that...
"BILLY" LIKES A NEW GIRL.
so i got kinda suicidal
just a bit
and wrote a whole bunch of letters and stuff.
i might post one later,
but i don't know.
my hands are numb and raw from typing so much,
which i doubt anyone will read, anyway
so, have a sparkly day, my friend
talk to me if you wish,
my AIMs are checkitsonLA and shehadthewxrld
my myspace is /lostindonsiz815
farewell, my dear reader[s].
bulimic
