I have to say ... I am REALLY torn.  My dearest friends are in SC ... and although I have a few friends here ... and unresolved issues with my brother ... I must find a place where I can teach ... I MUST!  It's a matter of income as well as, should I say calling?  It's so frustrating to keep bumping into brick walls and closed doors.  I KNOW there's an open door someplace ... My student loans that will be coming due unless I continue to take classes, and I sure can't afford it now. 

Apparently, serious decisions have become very, very strenuous for me.  I second guess myself.  I've made enough WRONG choices - I want to make right ones, but fear immobilizes ... and that seems to be where I might be ... caught between the fear of making the WRONG choice and actually making it.  I can't see ... I don't know what lies around either bend ... to the left or the right ... so I wait???  Should I stay or should I go???  I'm looking, straining through the mist and fog to SEE ... I must decide soon or wither here in this place.

Sullivan's Island Lighthouse 

~ B