Old News and Heart News

Everlong - Foo Fighters


I've somewhat been avoiding writing.  Partly cuz I wasn't sure if I wanted to leave off from this site again or from lack of courage/interest/etc. 

I saw the whole thing involving the mindsay user who invented lives, deaths and the such and frankly I'm not surprised at that.  This is after all the internet and when it comes to people writing about their lives, you have to take things with a shot of vodka.

What really surprised me was how some people could be shocked that anyone would lie about these kinds of things.  In the world that we live in, it's sadly something that should be expected.  I knew a lot of different people on here before but never met a single soul.  Sometimes I doubt even the people who I talked to a lot are honest about what they write.  As those who knew that psycho-sayer found out, even if other people say that they have met or know each other in real life and can validate the things being said, those others can just as easily be faked people.

And yeah, it's already been blown over but who cares anyways.  I just wanted to write a small piece on it in avoidance of other issues.


I don't remember where it was I heard the idea that people have many "the ones."  They denounced the notion that there is a single soul mate for everyone considering that there are 6 billion people in the world, the chances that you'll be near that person is probably astronomical.  Sure, people may argue that this is where fate steps in and puts the two of you close but to me, that sort of says that you have no choice in things.

So instead, a person has many "the one;" a person who completes us in a way that most others can't.  Although I think sometimes you meet a person who may well be "the one" but it just isn't the time yet.  That's where the whole "if you love em let em go" comes into effect.

Now, this concerns me in the way that while I have been seeing a girl (note that I didn't say dating), I don't really feel like pursuing anything further with her.  At the same time I've been showing interest or actually asking other girls out all the same.  But all the while I know that there's no real long-term interest because so far my heart still goes out to one girl who I'm holding out for until it's hopeless (although some others would say it's been hopeless).

To me, she feels like the one and since I'm not really concerned with getting into a serious relationship, I'm content to just wait and while I'm waiting, looking for a bit of side action.

Which is funny (not really) cuz there's one girl who I had met who isn't the type of girl I would usually be attracted to but since I can get a lil play, I don't care much.  The bad thing (I guess) is that I treat her exactly like a play toy, there for my amusement and when I'm not in the mood to do much I show lil interest in her.  She still gets with me when I call though so in a way I've got a booty call.

I'm not sure what I'm gonna do later on.  I don't really feel guilty much, surprisingly, even with how I treat her.  Which I'm being careful in not saying exactly how o_O  It's more with the instances of what occurred during the play than anything bad-bad.  And just that the only time I call her is when I'm interested in play.  So yeah.

I'm still keeping my options open...though I'm still hoping for things to work out. 

Later days.