Dear Puppy..

It isn't almost a poem....it is pure poetry...

 

I wonder who you write about..

Is the person married now?  I think I know..

sigh.

 

 

It's like a little of my love, alittle of my dream and a little bit of my imagination. I have admit I over exagerrate it. But not too much.

a little of your love?

a little of your dream?

a little of your imagination???

Oh Tweaty.........

sigh..

Friend,

 

 

You aren't any fool...You are wise and you take risks..and you believe in possibilities...You see what others don't. ..You love poetry...You have a great sense of humor and a wonderful heart.

I Adore you and your poem.

 

 

 

Oh, you're making me blushing.

 

I am that girl in a good day. In a bad day I'm not. Woman has both Uma and Kali in herself. The goddess are the same. Just like two side of the same coin.

 

I'm glad you like my writing stuff. This one is so spontaneous. I felt missing him and it came out. The strange thing about it is I don't feel hurt for not having him. I just feel love. Thank God I know when to stop and be happy with what I got.

Tweaty...I know about both of the sides...

I have observed ..........people...and .......it's perfect you know...cuz..it's you.

I think I understand.............a lot.

Emotions come out and that's okay...more than okay..

Have you ever heard the saying..."Better out than in." 

Sometimes...it is better in..

Hell...if I know..LMAO

Be happy...

Blush on Princess....(smiles)

You missed him?  I know...because I miss him too.

Sorry for being rather................nuts.

Being nuts is ok as long as you're not that nuts all the time. lol

We both have "him" to miss. Isn't it good to have someone to miss? Better than no one, eh?

Being nuts is okay...when it's a choice...you're right..It is really just acting "goofy", being in a silly mood..

There is someone I miss who is always with me..."always with you", he said to me..and then..I also miss my boyfriend..

I have learned that you can love more than one man .....at the same time. I suppose...sometimes hearts who love learn to adapt...

One must learn to be in the moment..and love is bigger than all of us.

One must give love in order to experience love.

 

You can love more than one. But I guess each love for each one is diferrent, isn't it? Use your love in a creative way, I've heard lots of that. But how? There is no guide book. No manual. Love comes with no gaurantee papers and you have to learn how to make it work.

Each is different..yes...like..........I will always love my exhusband..and..in my heart...I look at him and feel sad..like a loss of all of the years we loved and somehow....it died..but I will feel love for him until I die...I know that...

and I feel love for my boyfriend but sometimes....the love I feel is dwarfed by the problems and bickering..

Shouldn't be that way Tweaty...I mean

I am reading all of these self help books and I know that....if I react negatively to him , it is really my problem not his...yet sometimes, I get so angry....so angry...and I hate feeling like this...

You are right...We have to learn to make it work...by changing our communication...how we internalize messages...and how we react...

Definately not easy to stay in that peaceful, joyful state but it takes practice..

Loving your best friend is the best...

Some people just gell well....bring peace to each other and others don't.  sigh.

I want my peaceful warrior...

my friend.

my fantasy lover.

(I have a headache)

 

 

I think that statement is true..."Learn"

and with each relationship...we learn something..

I am practicing maintaining "innerpeace" and being silent ....even in the chaos...but it is sooooooooooo difficult...to even go for 2 hours and not judge ...

I have also learned that judging is all of the noise in your head...that goes on during a conversation..instead of just being right........"there".

Do you know what I mean by not judging?

I mean...thinking...anything...in that moment..just accepting and being...love..

but..

honestly...

it is challenging with difficult people..

People that can't get along with many others..

so...I have the best teacher at the moment..

My boyfriend...

He is difficult to get along with for most people which is why he has few friends....and that is why........He is my best teacher..at the moment.

Maybe I will end up enlightened Tweat.

(smiles)

an enlightened Christian...(who loves, acts and never judges silliness)  more please!

(smiles again)

I'm glad to hear you say he's your teacher, no t trouble. See, it's the positive thinking (personally I don't like these words "positive thinking" cuz some people "marketized it. Long story.). And when you think postivie, it's like you "success" in some level.

 

Maybe he's too scared to trust. I mean in whatever relationship, trust is the big factor and some people feel it's hard to trust. Even I feel sometimes difficult to trust. It takes a lot of courage to do that.

 

Lately, I found and face many people who love to judge. Strangers that always critic political situation or big players and some public figures in a very, very bad way. Usually, I listen more than speak and I can't help but thinking "Why hating so much?", "You hate them just because everything doesn't turn out as you like?". These people, they don't like this. They dislike that. They loathe that person. They think some palyers are disgusting. Oh, but look at you, the speaker. How good you are as a person? And the more you're talking, the more you're getting ugly.

 

Now, I judge less, understand more because I don't want to be like those strangers. 

 

I can see you smiles. It's like smile in the sky.

Truly Judging imprisons us and rips the joy and peace from inside ..Judging is all of our thoughts...Her ass is fat or his nose is big...lol Now I'm giggling or whatever all the stuff is that goes on in our minds...Perfect peace is quiet...being quiet ....brains turned off..and then.......we feel peace..

I try to not judge for just a couple of hours...but then I do...like.....I get annoyed internally....something he says like..."When are you going to start being nice to me"

 

grrrrrrrr...I react...inside...(that's judgement)...That's like saying..."When you stop lying to me"...and so it goes...but I am trying to turn off the noise and just allow him to say things that seem sarcastic to me...and I am not very good with sarcasm ....cuz I don't do it...Tweaty ...only the monks don't judge...only enlightened beings....don't judge...and it is very much worth working on...since the personal rewards are peace, joy and love...

That is what I mean when I say ...he is my best teacher...cuz If I can learn these lessons, then I will be able to have the most loving....wonderful relationships....so he is my classroom.

Tweaty...I know you seek to become peaceful , loving, wise, enlightened...Maybe....that will happen for both of us..

I am in the same place as you are my friend...I try not to....judge...I want to improve and grow in wisdom...create good and wonderful karma....see and create beauty around me...I want that so very much....and that includes the most loving and beautiful relationship with a man....

I see you smile even without seeing you and I smile back .............I look up and smile..You do understand so very much....and I love to be able to connect.........in understanding.  Such a friend you are..

I am smiling like earth smiling. *giggle*

It's the cutest smile I've ever seen.

 

Your guy...makes me think of a little boy who doesn't know how to express love. You know, like those boys who pull your ponytail everytime you walk by because they don't know the better way to get your intention.

 

Form what you said, it's like you gotta be his mama in the same time. Well, if you're happy nursing him, it's fine. I hope he knows how much love you have for him.

Yes....you are right again on all counts...

I feel like his Mamma and I do NOT want to mother this much..I also am getting tired of nursing...of coaxing...of encouraging...and the results are the same..

I fear........(not true fear...just using the english language properly..lol) that it would slowly kill me...to not have an equal partner..yet..for some reason..(maybe karma), this is where I need to be for now...(perhaps because of the lessons)..I know one thing..I feel more empowered than ever....within...within..not ego but connection to the source...of who I really am.

Tweaty...you make me smile too....happily smiling..You know that..

feels wonderful to want the best for someone you've never really met...(smiles)

That is good for you then. Normally people would say to you that you should stop or you're wasting your time on the man who (looks like) doesn't deserve it. But...who knows he really doesn't? I don't know. I think if you're happy to give, then give. Whenever you feel unhappy to do it, then stop.

 

Told you I'm weird...

 

 

In this world, there are zillions people and it's hard to find someone who understand you and accept who you are. Isn't it wonderful that though we never really met, we still can be friends and talking like we grow up together, went to same high school?

 

WE aren't weird..

We are in control of our lives and yes...I will stop when the time comes to stop..

He has a good heart..his intentions are good but his head creates..........stress.

not sure if I am up to it....but one day at a time until.....

there's a change.

many would call me weird...but it is what I must do...

I want stability yet at the same time....I want changes...

My perfect scenario would be....stability in love and travel around the world...but ...I have to put it on paper...(giggles)

Understanding?????Love bears all things...when it is true..but most are not true love..

We use the word loosely...and quite honestly....most times it is affection..

Usually only once or twice in a lifetime does lightening strike...Everyone is different...but usually...I know instantly..and my boyfriend was not instant..In the good moments, it is really good and in the bad moments which are frequent and continuous for him...I have to back off..get some breathing room...

See...we are both weird...lol...but in a good healthy way..I believe.

 

Didn't we go to the same high school? I thought for sure we did....I thought I saw your face in my year book(smiles) and I thought we shared many memories together...I guess in my weirdness, I was mistaken but it sure feels like we have known each other forever.

We aren't weird, weird...Just Good weird...lol

So, this is the conversations of two good weirdos. lol

Sounds nice. Perfect for a novel title, maybe.

 

I think people don't like weird guys because they're scared and don't know how to handle them. Hmm...Does that mean we're hard to handle?

People seem hard to handle when they are different...when they are nor understood or misunderstood....when the communication between them goes nowhere..I am not hard to handle but....I do like to control my life...although I am malable...some things for me are absolute..

I think ..............hard to handle is a term for people who are unlike you...or trying to change you....or do not understand your heart...We all change but in our own time...

I have never never been demanding...but I need to be accepted, loved and I am not a robot...it is wonderful when someone wants and thinks the same way I do.....this is harmoneous especially when it comes to the larger....living issues...We all want harmony...I think..I don't like being alone...It is so nice to have a partner to laugh with. cry with, depend on , trust...but...it seems to be temporary....I don't want that...but I accept it...Is it my fault? I do think I am right until I am with someone who has more common sense..who is wiser than I am ...I believe I recognize and respect those people..but when I am with someone with less sense....I tell them...(hint of a smile)

I think we're not hard to handle because we're not trouble makers. lol

We don't seek for it. We love nice life. Love and peace...

 

Yes, it's nice to have someone think the same way as we do and understand us and tolerate us. lol. I don't mind being alone. But...yes, sometimes I need someone to hold me, watch over me. A warm hand that makes you feel everything's gonna be ok. Or if it's not ok, it's ok anyway.

You say you don't mind being alone...but you aren't alone..

Really alone is sleeping alone...not having intimate conversation with someone..living alone is what I dislike...although I could get used to it..

I do NOT want to have different sexual partners...I know this is far too much discussion for a little reply...(blame it on the wine again) but as one gets older...knowing that someone is there ............makes me feel safer. ..I shall live my life as fully as possible..........even if it is alone.....but alone won't be my first choice Tweaty.

A warm hand is sometimes not a loving hand...and more than warm...I want loving...

I under what you mean by your last statement...I feel the same...I have to make whatever comes my way...okay.

Happiness is important....so we have to accept everything that comes our way...

Maybe I should say being single than being alone cuz many single people are not alone, right? They still have friends and family. It may feel a little bit cold when you go to bed. But, look at the bright side, you don't have to wake up in the middle of the night and pull you blanket back from someone. lol

He has to pull the blanket back from me...lol ...cuz I roll up in it...must be a safety thing..

I was going to write you this morning...I felt that you were upset with my alone reply...I hope I didn't hurt you...I just felt alone being alone...and sometimes friends and family make no difference...it is just .............not having that warm body that makes you smile and loving eyes to look into...instead you sit with your sister and her husband or your friend and her husband but you don't want to be with just anyone...so you stay alone...

I am going to be alone again ....very soon...and I will just .......make me....my best friend and love...I should just really fall in love with myself...then I wouldn't feel lonely.

The adjustment is the hardest...right?  getting over someone you shared so much with and then.... you do it all over again.  You start believing again.

No. I didn't get upset. Don't worry about that. The truth is now I wonder if I have time to feel alone really. I have life with lots of works and taking care of my parents. I've come to the age my porents getting very old and sick easily. They're gradually weak and more like a child we have to take care everyday. I ant to do my best for them because I don't want to regret anything on the day they're not with me anymore.

 

I admit some night I feel like someone's arms around me in my bed. Some evenings while I'm going home in a crowded bus, stuck in the traffic, I feel exhausted and lonely and wish there's someone drive me home. I want all the girls in the world want. But I know not everyone of us will get it. Sometimes  it's not about what happened, it's about how we deal with it.

 

I know It hurts when you have to leave someone we're bonded to. I hope you'll be ok with that as soon as possible. 

Yes Tweaty, it is about how we deal with what life sends us..The best thing we can learn is to accept life and be in the moment and release the past and future and have the best intentions and see what you want, even write it out on paper and then release it...Did you know that I have already written on paper the characteristics, attributes of my future partner/husband? I know what I want and when I see him...I will see exactly what I have written in my notebook.

I want to have more important things to do in my life but those things I will create...I want to create a vision board and set goals for spirituality, friendship,family, home, volunteerism or work...that sort of thing...I haven't written down goals and therefore I haven't worked towards .achieving them.. Busy is good but I think anything in life can become unbalanced and then we have to move in the other direction...in order to gain equalibrium...balance.

I love write things down, too. (Of course, writing is what I do for living. lol) I still write my journal. It's useful for me, gives time to rethink or vent down about things. It helps me to balance my life, especially the venting part. ;P

 

Sometimes I wonder what is the most important thing to me...I think it's family.

Almost everything I do, it's for my family. I don't feel it's a sacrifice because I don't feel torture. Yes, it's hard sometimes. Then you see smiles in your house and you feel like it's gonna be ok.

 

Balance is the best. I agee with you. Salute to balance!

Family is very important...I feel more that way lately as I get older..This is why I am spending time with my sisters....My boyfriend and I broke up...I am not answering his emails...I will let him have the last word...He needs to have it...even though he has said things about me that aren't true....He said something (about me) that I feel should be defended...I have told him .........5 times that he was wrong...still he.....insists he know what I was thinking...what I was feeling about him...so I have to let it go...just let it go...

I am having fun here...I even have a lunch date if I want...with a very nice funny actor/Scottsdale businessman...that I met at a winebar..

I'm supposed to call.

I may call him....just to network...he is funny...could be a friend..

Oh-oh charming birdy is falttering her wings.

Funny man...sounds nice. Funny is always better than a beau with no brain.

I hope you enjoy your being single now.

yeah...faltering I suppose is true..but..but...(lol) Wouldn't you want to set the record straight...if your beau accused you of accusing him of something that was absolutely not true...I never ever even uttered the word... had the thought...It is absurdity...yet I have to just say............nothing...

My wings have been pinched...maybe faltering..but I have trouble with ...................complete untruth..I feel like telling him what for...cuz I can't understand why he accuses me of accusing him..(I know...very complicated...but shouldn't be)

Wouldn't you want to say..."Hey...you...for the 5th or 6th time, I am telling you....I never said or thought that about you for even a second so please....for the last time, don't say that I did)  sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh!!!!!.

(Birdie stands up and fluffs her feathers...no longer falthering)

Oh I wanna see birdy fluffinf the feather. *giggle*

 

I know how frustrating when people acuused you for saying something you didn't do it. Maybe I go for "talk to the hand". lol

lol...oh you are so cute....so cute...

yes...I wanna see Tweaty...saying.."talk to the hand"

giggles.

 

What people get in their minds....is their thing...but sometimes it is completely false...It just proves that each of us is very different...I suppose that it is a good thing...I just want to find the someone who is like me....(should be like me right????).I mean ...a happy couple should be alike...........don't you think?..Oh God...I just don't like bickering...so energy wasting..being disagreeable...I need my energy for being on line...lol

for some future event that will require energy...lol

now I am giggling all because of a puppygurl.

I need some giggling now because I'm so down today. I don't know what happened. I tried to focus on work and I couldn't make it.

 

Maybe it's because of that call last night, telling me it's time to move my as* to the office. I just don't want to go. I need more "me" time and it's frustrating.

 

Sometines I really need to be alone. *sigh*

Okay here's the plan....I come over and sit on you and hold down your hands...The only thing you have is a telephone which is used to call the office and say that a Bird...(say Big Bird, it's only a little lie..lol) is sitting on you and you are unable to move....and then I may tickle you to get you to laugh...It's not quite alone but sometimes you hardly notice a bird...Tweaty....I get your sigh....I sigh with you...wish I could help...so what do you think about my idea?

Hmm...I imagine birdy on my tummy, holding down my paws. It works.I'm giggling now. I hope I won't laugh while I make a call. lol

glad it worked hon...I have my ways to make you smile..

cuz..you make me smile too.

It's Wednesday and I didn't go to the office. Nobody calls and I keep myself quiet. I thought I got one extra day. Turns out that I get too sick to finish the jobx. *sigh*

Tweaty, your body is speaking to you..I don't think it likes continual day to day stress even though it makes a body feel like it is flying when you get it...adrenalin rush!

Oh my.....I think you need your muse to help.

too sick to finish the job?  Well....maybe you're late...

maybe...one day late is what you need to produce magic.

hugs...

(in the moment...in the magic moment)

 

Finally, there's some magic cuz I can finish all it has to be done.

 

I think I'm sick because of the stress. I noticed that I got headache when I think about work or trying to to do it. When I just lied down and tried to make my head go blank, the aches was gone.

 

Now that everything is done, I feel so light and my flu is somewhere else. It's amazing... 

I know you are so very talented and writers need to write but I also understand the pressure of performing..when you have to get it right.. Yes..sickness comes from the stress..

We must find an answer to the buildup of stress that comes with having time limits set on creativity...How to destress?  How to destress?  hmmmmmmmm

meditation...quiet the mind..as you did and the headache went away...

I am convinced that meditation is necessary for you..

They say that sex is also a relaxation technique but I wouldn't know a thing about that...

so happy you got it finished...and your body ....feels the release of the pressure...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh.

 

Yeah. And I got a good massage today. Very relaxing.

 

Tomorrow I gotta go to the office and I think I'm ready for that.

Lucky you....a massage.....I love massage...I really should make an appointment .  I wonder if my sister is available.

Tweaty, I am glad that you're ready for the office..Do you have combat boots on...books in hand....a cigar in your mouth?  Just kidding...

 

Almost like that. Except books in one hand and horsewhip in another.

 

It's pretty tired this since we'got only 28 days...

only 28 days?  you mean in the month of February? end of the month deadlines?

sigh.

I wish I could find my writing style..I wish I knew where my talent lies...lays...has been laid...layed.

I know I am a creative creature but I haven't found the niche yet..

are you front and center at the oscars?...I am....I have a date with Mr. Oscar.

One thing I have to say to you..

Wherever you are....wherever I am....let our energy always be connected in friendship...no matter what.

 

I see....you're into whips are you?

Already whipped (both myself and the others). Still got other business to do. Tomorrow I have flamenco class and one job to finish. The day after tomorrow I got two jobs to finish and I have to go out to the meeting in the evening.

the day after the day after tomorrow...still got other works to do.

 

I have works to do everyday. If I'm lucky, I might find one or two playday.

 

Puppy is itching to play. *sigh*

You are working so hard...I think a person is fortunate when they have work to do that they love..(even with the frustrations that go along with it)..

You have opportunity....Bless you and your work..

Puppy will play...soon...I hope very soon...

sending hugs and mucho affection...

One day at a time...

If God is willing...there is time for everything under the sun.

Yeah. Only that sometimes you're so tired and frustrating and you begin to think you hate the job you love.

I don't want to be in that situation.

I just got fully rest today. Woke up at noon and doing nothing much. It's nice.

I get it! ..We are sometimes entrapped by the things we love..

so glad you're resting...

Guess who is going to an exhibition game for Spring Training here in Arizona.....me....guess which team I want to see play.....a favourite of someone we love.

Mister's fav team?

I just dreamed of him last night.

Yes...his fav team...Spring training...Exhibition Games..I have my game picked out...The 2 teams I want to see play.

Finally.....hippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...I get to see that team.

 

I wish I could dream of him..I did twice...but I hardly ever dream....I had vivid dreams as a child...and I have dreamt of people I've never met and I swear if ever I saw their faces, I would know them from my dreams..their features were so clear...the emotions on their faces so real....

but this I do...

Every single day of my life I think of him...a lot.

not one day goes by....not one.

Can you share your dream?

 

It's kind of an escape from real life dreaming. I've been through such a mess last month. My family was in some legal trouble and that had something to do a lot with money. Also I got handful of works and when it's the end of the day, I need someone's hands.

 

He's like a big teddy bear mixed with Santa and I can climb upon his lap and just curl myself there. I know he's protecting me.

 

And no, he doesn't do lapdance. lol.

Real life vs. Dreaming..

I think the two sometimes co exist..

Where does one end and the other begin?

For me...it feels the same..

Teddy Bear who is protecting me?

yes...I understand..That feels right.

but more....much more.

not lapdance but some kinda dance.

a great dancer I think.

I prefer waltz.

 

I think I'll stand on his feet while we dance since he's a whole foot taller than me. lol. That way I don't have to worry about the steps or stepping on each other's feet.

No...I will stand on his feet while WE dance...cuz...I want to be his little girl...

His older little girl..

I want to be his dance partner..

smiles

He's a foot taller than me too...unless I wear stillettos...lol

If you dance on his feet, then you shouldn't wear those stillettos. That would hurt... lol

Right....just lower heel...Oh I would love to see his feet...I want to examine his toes...really...I would look at each toe with wonder....just to see how they grew and were developed and I would show him my toes....cuz ....(lol) I like my toes...

I don't like my toes. I don't like my feet. I got ugly feet. Sometimes I think I used them too hard.

Did you stomp them when you were a kid?

Did you wear shoes that were too tight?

Were you a ballerina?

Dancers use their feet.

I am sure you don't have ugly feet..You just used them and that makes them beautiful Tweaty..

They are a map of where you've been...how far you've travelled..

My feet always give me a hard time when I;m looking for a right heels. Almost no heels suit me well. I can only wear sneakers and boots.

 

Only Flamenco shoes suit me. Too bad I can't wear that as a daily shoes.

I'm a flip flop girl...I have come to love those open air sandals...I almost hate enclosing my feet..

I like cute sneakers....with jeans...Puma has some cute ones to wear with capris..I only wear sneakers when I am working out...but...love casual...sandals...Flamingo shoes?

hmmmm...I'm not sure what they look like...I'm imagining almost a laced up ballet slipper...hmmmmm?  still thinking.

There are many fancy flamenco shoes. I just wear basic shoes for student. They looks like normal heels. Only much much more comfortable.

Tweaty, I am sorry about the financial situation your family encountered...In this financial environment, it is a balancing act, and so many people are leveraged...I feel so grateful that I have enough money to live until my portfolio comes back to where it was....I feel grateful..

Re: holding someone's hands..

Sometimes it feels nicer to hold my own hand....lol

although......I would love to hold the hands of a Teddy.

I shall dream that dream too.

 

Isn't he great? You can also hug him cuz he's a teddy.

 

Sometimes I wish I were five. Just a little girl who can sleep on huge teddy's tummy. 

Yes...he is great!...I love him..

We can be grown women and still be little girls who sleep on our Teddy's tummy...I like that picture.

When you hear me call him Teddy, you'll know who I am speaking of...I shall call him Teddy..

Can you think of a better name?

maybe Bear?

Actually I love Peddington bear...A bear with fire fighter coat...or is it a rain coat? I'm not sure. Anyway, that bear wear long raincoat. So, who loves that kind of coat? You should know...

Tweaty...that is too long a name to continue write....Mister Peddington Bear...sounds like aristocracy.....and even though he is aristocracy...lol....I want to say "Bear".

You should Know??  Yes...Tweaty....I do...

very much know.

 

 

Or we just call him C-Bear. You know, Bear with the C. Is that too obvious?

no c bear...You're right..

Just Bear.

You know, sometimes my friends call him as "your guy" to me.

I guess I can smile with that.

They used to with me too .In the beginning, it was obvious how much of a "fan" I was.....but I don't talk about the bear much any longer......too obvious...don't want to talk....just feel.  I feel very much...I sense very much....

I saw Wacthmen Poster and can't help but thinking what it's gonna be if the bear were in that film...

I don't know that one...must google...you mean Watchmen poster?  Now I am curious...

Yeah, remeber that rumor years ago about him and the night owl character?

no hon...

I feel so ...........in left field..

I never remember rumors..

only the beautiful Bear essence..that makes me feel good.

OMG....Just googled nite owl....Would have been perfect!

Absolutely Perfect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh...now I wonder.............why not?

He would have been good in it...yes..

 Crudup and Morgan..

I see Bear as Superhero...going to google night owl character.

And Watchmen is not a typical superhero story. I haven't seen it yet. But my friend told me it has a lot of dark side and amazingly created. I think Bear would feel it's a very interesting project.

 

And think about him being in latex suit is a little bit tingling.

hmmmmm...I think of him being out of his latex suit a bit tingling...I think of him........face to face in my space...... being a bit tingling....yes.. I do believe..we understand his fascinating mind and I agree.... he would find that kind of superhero an interesting project.

I am feeling tingling now as I think about going home soon...and Bear.

Why going home makes you feel tingling?

because Bear will be in town...and just maybe...I can say hello..face to face..I want to smile into that face.

I wish you have that luck and if you do, don't forget to share.

Oh, that makes me think of tish. She would say like I say.

If I have the chance ............share I will...and I will be thinking of all of you.

sigh.

hmmmm..What do you mean by share?

Smiles I can share..Other things are private.

Just the experience you want to share.

I know we gottat have a little privacy, a little secrest somethimes.

maybe yes...maybe no....sometimes I like to not talk about any of my experiences.

smiles..

Birdie. did you hear of sad news about tish?

Of course, you already knew. I saw you on 101.

How shocking it is...

Yes...very sad...Her stories...lived and breathed...

I can't believe in death...somehow..because the words were Bear...I mean.................they lived.

I mean.....I feel .............cut off..since the stories lived in me.

very sad Tweaty...very very sad.

The absence of tish makes me think and seriously do seize the day becasue we never know what day is our last day.

No....no one knows the day....Young and Old pass on...

I am writing Tweaty in this second and I have no guarantees of tomorrow...Seize the day and follow your bliss...I know understand the saying Follow Your Bliss....Emotions either give us good or bad feelings...When we do something that makes us feel bad, we are not manifesting close to God source...so........Following your bliss keeps you close to what is the right path for your life...the source of joy...Follow Joy...Takes a lot of practice....I am reading the book..."Ask and It Shall be Given"..Esther and Jerry Hicks...apparently written by a non physical entity spook...about mind and emotions and manifesting and our role in creating good things for our lives...Mind creates whatever it thinks about...more of it..and emotions tell you if you are on the right path and if the emotions are joyful, you create faster...

sweetie! miss you too!

Good to see you around here again! I miss you and Michel, too.