I like your poem but I don't like the self blame.

We live and learn.

Circumstances happen for reasons sometimes unknown to us..

 

Sounds a little depress, ain't it? That's the mood I had when I was writing and it was actually raining at that time.

I have a nature to balme myself first when something goes wrong. Kind of bad habits.

no...you shouldn't blame yourself..
You aren't the victim or the victimizer or the villian.

We all have some bad habits...Many people Always blame others...that's a real baddy.

 

 

You're abosolutely right!

 

I think I'm the kind of girl who'd rather hurt myself than the others. This is speaking in gemerally. On the other hand, if I have to give some marks on sombody's face with my golf club in order to defend myself or my beloved, I'm pretty sure I won't hesitate. The fact that I don't appreciate viloence doesn't mean I can't use it. Wow, as I speaking this, I feel like I'm Die Hard or something. lol

not Die Hard but you are strong and sensitive and that is such a wonderful combination of traits..It is perfect actually Tweaty.

I love strong and sensitive...I am similar in my own way...

Don't hurt yourself sweetie..cuz..your heart will develop problems..

Be honest and sometimes you will get hurt, even while hurting others but at least...life is dictating who gets hurt..It is a part of life..

I am sort of like you in that respect..

I think we're pretty much alike or we can't keep talking to each other like this.

 

The problem is sometimes I don't know if I'm strong enough or sensitive enough. That's what we have to learn everyday, I think. Too sensitive, you'll get hurt easily. Too strong, you might miss something along the way. To balance them is not easy, ain't it?

Balance is not easy...From the time I was a child, my grandfather always talked about balance in one's life and it impacted me..Somehow, I know that I NEED balance in my life and everything I do must be balanced...Mind, Body, Spirit...If I am not in balance, I know right away and MUST work to correct it.

Balance is an absolute for me..

I am pretty aware of that in my life.

I think our core beliefs are the same..We strive for the same goals I think..

Everybody needs balance. If it's missing, that's when the problems come to us.

 

I can see goal of my life and so do you. But sometimes we get lost or forget or distracted and we have to strive to get back on track. I feel calm and peace when I know what I do and why I do it. Maybe that is another form of happiness.

 

When I was young I wants thrill. As I get older, I'd prefer peace. I used to think a simple life is boring. Now I know it's not.

How wonderful that life is our best teacher..I love that you prefer peace...Again balance comes into play..A simple life is a beautiful life..We notice the beauty around us..We take time to see God's creation and it can as exciting as you want to make it..

Wisdom is what you have..Wisdom is a
God given gift..I remember as a child being so fascinated with watching a worm crawl across the pavement or a bee taking pollen from inside the rose and I was happy ...without a care...simply protected in my environment and observing creation in action..Nothing can be less boring than observing creation and finding work  to do with oneself that is fulfilling and a blessing to society...whether it be...paid or volunteer.. I agree completely that to do what you want to do and why is another blessing..and those kinds of blessings (purpose) bring peace and happiness...Sharing purpose in life with a partner is the icing on the cake...

sigh..

I don't even have my cake yet.

 

Oh, I think you can bake one. Sometimes the problem is you think too much. Maybe you should let you life flow and see what is the direction. I can't speak for you. But when I was trapped in my thoughts, thinking too many things, I have to let it go. Allow myself not to think and just do things in fornt of you. A simple things like folding the laundry, clean the house, etc.

 

Sometimes you can't rush the wisdom. It comes when it's time.

 

PS. I was pretty mean occasionally when I was a kid. I  used to chased the dragonfly and killed it. Can't say it's an accident. I was too young and too stupid. I just wanted to see what's gonna happened if I hit a dragonfly with a stick. I was so sorry to do that and I still am.

You can say that again!!!!!again!!!!!again!!!!!!lol

sometimes I think too much....I don't want to make mistakes.

One door leads to joy and the other could lead to heartache and stress..One door is marriage, the other is cohabitating..one door is alone, the other is with a partner..Thinking about what could be behind the door is stressful for me...since I am trying to get it right...however..

I do know that.......whatever I do, I will try my best to bake a great cake.

 

It would be so great if this booming voice could say.."No Birdie, don't marry him, cuz you are going to turn right next year and meet the perfect man ..according to my plan" but he won't do that...or he could say.."Yes Birdie, marry  and I will bless this union..with great work that you will do" That is the wisdom, I need..."A loud booming voice"

All kids can be mean..That is experiencing both good and bad in ourselves at a young age.

I think I burnt an ant with the help of the sun and a magnifying glass..All little kids do something mean..but also ...many kind things..I liked being good and doing good deeds from a young age..I knew God loved me and wanted me to be good and I felt "good".

 

I know it sounds silly but I wanted to feel "purity"..

 

 

Today, I kill flies when they buzz around my kitchen...but I respect life of all creatures, big and small..Life is the most precious gift of all...

I think you feel the same.

I am going to take your advice Tweaty and let it flow.

sending you megga hugs too..

 

Oh yeah, let it flow and see what's gonna happened. It would be no fun oe exciting if you know it all--what's next. It could be boring and we can learn nothing. The important thing is our attitude towards them. Sometimes you just change the way you think and eveything changes.

 

You burnt an ant? Wow. Kids are so mean, aren't they?

 

Mega hugs...hmm...I can see big wings unfolding...lol

Attitude is everything..I know that!  but...sometimes I forget to practice..I know you understand too..It's like..We know...but we need reassuring..

Wings?? Maybe someday I will get my wings..lol

way up there in the friendly skies.

mega hugs back to you..

or is your saying..back at you?

smiles

 

Oh yes..I am the thinker all right..and you?

Oh yes..I am the thinker all right..and you?

For some reason when you say mega and I think of tweety bird in the size of Big Bird. lol The head would HUGE cuz tweety has a very big head...

 

I know you're a thinker. What else can you be with many, many things in your head like this?

 

I'm not sure I'm a thinker. I mean sometimes I think so hard. Sometimes I don't think at all. I just say what the hell and go for it. Pretty much like mad sergent in a battle field.

I am the same...not always thinking...sometimes just goofy and silly and laughing...but when I need to make decisions, when I feel lonely or miss someone..when the world knocks on my brain...I become the "thinker" ..I really love being free and spontaneous and funny.

sooooo...Miss Mad Sargent...that's a good name for you..lol

You don't know how many times I embarrass myself with being mad sergent. lol But...not much people knows that because I got this poker face. Everytime I did something weird, I just act like it's a normal thing to do. lol

hahahahah...I think ............you're right....I don't know how many times you've embarrassed yourself with the mad sargent...but I can only guess....how about lots? lol..funny.

that's it...when you do the wierd thing...just fake it...

Me??? Hell NO???? I am just soooooooo normal!!! (right thing to do btw..what choice do we have but to fake it?)

I love you.

Everybody's abnornmal in one way or another. Come on you gotta do something weird for at least once in your life. How about being on stage and impostoring Madonna? I did it alot when I was in university. lol Everybody thought I was cool.

but.........isn't it best to be a fan of the person you're impostering?...I suppose....not for a real pro..lol

I'd rather imposter a  Mister....lol..how about Mr. Laurel?

I could do Madonna...imposter her.....would take work though...She looks sooooooooooooo tired  lately...that's a start....oh my gosh..This is entertainment!.Okay..you dress me up and I will work on Madonna.

I thought Madonna in the 80s, when she first became a star from Like a Virgin album, was very interesting. She's a pretty girl and knew how to make 80s fashion look cool while I thought it was horrible at that time. Her hair wasn't so big then. lol

Yes...I liked Madonna in the 80's.. She had this cuteness and roundness...(fat cheeks..I like fatter cheeks).It was a softer effect...not the wirey athletic look)

so Flamingo Queen...what sort of wierd thing do you see me doing?  in that fantasy of yours....just once in my life?

hmm??  

Mad Sarg????

what wierd thing?

lol

Since you're a birdie, maybe you try once being a catwoman? Michelle Pfiefer's version, not hally berry. I thought that was hot...and weird. lol

Yes...I like Michelle Pfiefer's version...yes...I would like that role.....purrs..........

I thought ............Why didn't they cast Michelle Pfiefer in Mamma Mia instead of Meryl Streep?  Michelle would have looked so great with those leading men and I thought she would have been great in that role...with her looks and sassiness and voice.

since you're a puppy, I would like to cast you in a role...

lol

You can be my "old Yeller" puppy except you won't get any Mad Sarg disease...I would let you sleep at my feet beside the fire every night...

lol..feed you doggie treats and you would be soooooo happy you'd purr...whoops..that's my role...lol

 

I'd better imitate my doggie. When I work by sitting on the floor and do things on my traveller's desk, he's always lie down beside me and put his head on my lap and sleep. He looks very happy, even happier when he gets his doggie biscuits. lol

Isn't that a beautiful thing Tweaty?  They are so happy...so grateful...they just love with everything they have...His head on your lap and asleep says it all.

I miss a dog...I guess when (if) I get to Maui, I will have two doggies wanting to put their heads on my lap...They sense your loving energy...don't they?

Of course, he loves me because I'm the one who give him his treats every after dinner. lol

 

I wish you can have your doggies soon. Pets can heal people with their unconditional love. So, which breed do you want? Or you think of adopting them from pets shelter?

My boyfriend lives in Maui (although he hasn't been there for almost a year) and has 2 dogs in his home...They are a Cocker Spaniel..(Beau) and an English Setter (Maddison) two boys....and once I started to feed them, walk them...they really started to cuddle...I think ...it started with treats..anyway...I miss them.  It will be nice to see them again...Maddison is a shelter dog...and getting older...I just read that the life span of a setter is between 10 - 12 years...so I want to make sure Maddie has one great year left!..

If I get a dog, I want a little lap dog. my cuddle dog..not too big...and non shedding...I know..but there are these great mixed breeds now...like Labridoodle..other smaller mixed non shedding breeds...They breed everything with a poodle now....Oh those poodles do work overtime...so...I really want a mutt...A mutt with heart and no curly or wavy hair...

a wavy haired muttski.

Dogs are like kids. They love when someone take care of them. It's so simple. You give them love and they give it back in return.

 

I have mixed breed around the house. lol. They're kids of Jackson, my old poodle that was in dog's heaven now. He was such a playboy!

 

Small dog is convenience to be taken care, I think, Especially when we're women that cannot fight with big dog like labrador. I like Scottish Terrier. They looks so funny. It's not like they're real!

I guess he should be a playboy!!!!! lol..His name is POODLE!..Everyone wants his sperm..lol  ..I want to be real close to my dog.....real close...on my bed and everywhere and I really don't like dog hair on my  clothing...I mean...that's normal..I am not the kind of dog owner that wants their dog on the floor...If my dog is on the floor, I want to be with him on the floor...cuddling...and it is hard to do with those hairy guys...lol

Yes..Dogs are like kids...so much humility....we become puddles of love...which makes me wonder...if people were puddles of humility...would we love them or hate them?  Just a question...maybe if they had puppy eyes, we'd have to love them...and love them and love them..nonstop...Humility is a pretty good deal!

I am having a giggly morning...the sun is shining...I like that!

When you have a little dog...you can treat them like a baby...I remember when I was young, I slept with my cat....not anymore...too much hair..

I suppose you can tell that hair...is a no no for me..

Tweaty...In 3 days...Maddison and Beau have hair balls floating along the hardwood...When the sun shines on the floor, all  you can see is tiny hairs..Then I vacuum and wash the floors again...myself...in the heat.....so I am tired of hairy creatures...If I had a maid come in once a week, I wouldn't mind...and a groomer for the hairy wonder.

Talk about hair, I have to give up for cats! I can cuddle with dogies, not cattie (and they dont' like that.). I think hairy pets owner gotta keep those lint rollers handy. lol

 

Maybe short haired dogs are you choice. Or you gotta go find the no-hair magic glasses. You know, the one you wear and you so no hair at all. lol  

Multiple Choice....

 

1)Either find the no hair magic glasses..

2) Non shedding doggie

3) No doggie...no cattie.

4) Wait until you're 90 years old and so blind, you can't see anything...especially thousands of itty bitty hairs.

 

My choice is # 2.

I know how much you enjoy multiple choice questions...Ms. Flamingo.

smiles..