well here we go...

to marrow will be my mothers birthday. the same mother that had passed away when i was 5 yrs of age. i know that i am going to have a very off day tommarrow considering so that is why i am writing this today instead of tommarrow because it would not make any sense at all if i were to write it tomarrow.

ok so i moved down here from welland ontario in 2007 and have been here almost a year. i moved down here with my ex who was my boy friend at the time and his dad and step mom. my ex and i had gotten into a verbal disagree ment and he had confined me into a corner in the bed room where we were having the verbal dispute and he would not let me leave until i had talked to him.

i proceeded to tell him that he was keeping me in personal confinement against my will and that i did not want to talk to him at that time to let me go or else i would hpone the police. he had finally let me go and i had ran out of the room bawling my eyes out. i ran down the stairs and out the front door.... hi had come down the stairs after me stopping at his parents because they had stopped him and asked him what the hell was going on. he proceeded to tell them that we had got into an argument and that i was mad at him and would not talk to him.

they had asked him why i had ran out the front door crying and he claimed that he did not know. once i had cooled down i had returned home and went to go up to the bedroom. when i entered the room he had asked me if i had wanted to talk now and i had told him no.

i went back down stairs and sat down in the living room. his parents had come in from outside when they were letting the dog out. they had sat down in the living room with me asking me what was wrong. so of course them being his parents i thought that they could do something or say something to him to make him realize that he can not do what he did. so i had told them that he had confined me in a corner in the bed room and would not let me go until i had talked to him.

they were flabergasted and didn't know what to say.

after that i had moved next door to a friends house and started living there. at that time me and my ex were no longer together... so there was this technician at my work that i had really liked and he had really liked me but my ex was too overly protective of me for the guy to even talk to me with out my ex standing in the way.

i had started dating this tech and we had been dating for about three weeks and i did something really stupid and lost him and that is all that i am going to say on that matter.... however after we broke up he did not want to talk to me hug me or even as little as be close to me.... i had written him multipal texts telling him that i was sorry and he didn't want to listen or for me to text him nor call him anylonger so i said alright.

these past few months i have been writing him letters and sticking them into his car door at work while he is out on the road... i mostly stick them into his car door on a thurs day or friday when no one is watching.... recently i had wrote him a letter telling him how i felt about him and me and the situation that were are in...

of course no reply back from the letter like always... but my roomate that i live with currently, her boyfriend is the roomate of him and he had come in on friday and had asked me if i was still planning to move to saskatoon.... when i said no he had said good under his breath when i had asked him what he had said he cleared his throught and said that he said nothing.... i say there looking at him for a few minutes and then said okay... before him and his girlfriend my roomate left to go out of town to his house he had told me that he wasn;t spossed to tell me this but i still have a chance to get back with my ex the technichian... and i said and your not supposed to tell me this and he said no... i then replied with well then i didn't hear what you just said then. he said ok good and then they left..... now it got me thinking because i went to work this morning and my ex the tech was there and every time he looked at me i would look at him and usually he would put his head down and turn the other way but this time he stared me straight in the eyes but would not say anything to me...

now i just want to know what you guys that read my posts would think about this situation cuz i just don't know what to do at this point.