so today was nice...kinda. i have a problem though. Tim seems to think he could tell me what to do or who i could talk to. He expects me to go and tell him everywhere i go and every thing that i do. Which i think is bullshit because im not even going out with him. When we broke up he asked if i wanted him to pay my phone bill..and i thought to myself ..."more money for me" so i said sure if you want to keep paying for it. So, i discovered that he gets my phone bill then asks me who i've been talking to and what numbers are on my phone bill. fucken bullshit! For example, i've been talking to this guy i've known for quite a while but never really talked to him until now. he's really awesome. Eli's his name. We went out today...just dinner and the park. i wouldn't think he was that type of guy because he looks all tough and straight forward. But today i met the soft side to him. he was very nice and i had such a good time that i kissed him. So, you know i got to my appt (where richie is staying) and i get a call from tim...he says "where were you? i just saw you get home and some guy dropped you off" so i was like "yeah, so? i do have a life you know?" then i said "what the hell are you doing stalking me?" (imagine what he would have done if he knew richie was in the appt) so he gets Eli's number that he has on my phone bill from last month and calls him and says a whole bunch of shit to him ...he tells him that we are still together. Then, Eli calls me and tells me this...he was very understanding and listened to me explain. He understood the situation and left it alone. but tim kept going at it and he continues to call...right this moment. i just dont think my love life is any of his business anymore and he should back off!

  On the bright side of things...Eli told me lots of nice things ...he said how beutiful, gorgeous and stunning i was...at that moment i was like wow! but then again it's typical coming out of a guys mouth when he's on a date. We are supposed to meet for lunch tomorrow but, forst thing in the morning i'm going to go to tim's place and get this stupid thing he has in his head all sorted out.

  As for richie...he has been staying with me and it's been great. he has a job and helps me with the payments but i really dont need it...he still insists. nothing has been going on between us although i know it going to sooner or later. he's like my rooomate now and he knows the i go out on dates and he's fine with that and doesn't flip out. We hang out just us sometimes or with our friends. Sometimes i wake up and find him laying there on my bed next to me. but i dont mind... i feel bad because he sleeps on the couch. When he wakes up before me he kisses me and gets up ...i dont open my eyes or say anything. i pretend i dont know.

it's been fun though. i haven't talked to Shawn in a few days but that's ok...he'll probably call in a couple of days....he always does.  

I will let you guys know what happens with tim and why he's doing this.

        just let me know what you think of this.