Message In A Bottle: 3 Wishes

I left too early this morning. I wanted to stay and wait for you to wake up, and then just go from there . . . begin the weekend very early. I got up in order to make it to two jobsites and then a meeting . . . something important, and it was . . .

Tired, not enough sleep, so many plans . . . so much work . . . and its for our future . . . If something happened to me, then you wouldn’t have to worry for anything. That was my promise on our first date after my birthday. You were in a good mood, kissed me back and you smiled a lot. Something was unsaid at that moment and we were “a couple”. You were mine and you had a boyfriend.

Remember where we were? I do exactly. You took a sip of wine, there was a sea breeze and I couldn’t take my eyes off of you . . . and you told me “it shows”, then laughed at me.

We started playing the lottery, trying to figure out our lucky numbers, with the money we could . . . and you asked me, “if you had three wishes . . . ?” Truly I had everything I wanted right there . . . 1^st wish – you saying that you loved me, 2^nd – a plan for a new business that I knew I could do for you, 3^rd – seeing you blush when I asked . . .

My love, a lot has changed since then, and some things will never . . . not ever change . . . So here it is, finally, my three wishes . . .

1^st I wish that I never want anything or anyone as much or more than I do you . . . not ambition, not wealth, not power or privilege. I’ve learned that there is only one thing money can’t buy that I cannot live without or get for myself, and that’s you. There is nothing, no amount of money, that would replace you or even a moment in time.

2^nd I wish I had known you all of our lives. That I grew up loving you and protecting you and making you laugh. That I was there to prevent or stop what it was that hurt you so deeply that it continues to this day. You are the love of my heart, my soul mate and somehow, I would have been there for you.

3^rd I wish you loved me just half as much as I love you.

P.S. Just because I am not there every day, never ever means I love you a moment less . . . and never will.