6-29-08 Friendships

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supertree

6-29-08 Friendships

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I'm feeling kinda disapointed in myself today. I've gone against my personality a lot within the past few weeks, and with hanging out with Laura. She's been a bit of a bad influence on me. I mean - yeah, I've had a lot of fun, but at what cost to my Christian life? It's been kinda like playing with fire, and I just, don't want to get burned. It's been nice to have someone to hang out with though, since I don't really have anyone to spend time with. A lot of my friends are busy, and thats fine. Plus, no car. So that kind of leaves me trapped. And I hate sitting at home thinking about the what ifs of my life. I just...don't feel like myself. And I feel like spending time with Laura is like escaping that. Not the best way to deal with things. I just..I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know who to be. I want to have Christ as my number one love in my life, and I'm getting far from it. I listened to a good sermon this morning, Harvests message from last week. I do miss going there a lot. It's a great church. I know that Laura is just trying to help me to take my mind off of things, but maybe thats not what God wants of me right now. I have to do a lot of thing is all I know. Kim thinks I should just have fun...but...I don't know.

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sandyquill on

Re: 6-29-08 Friendships

Remember that solitude is highly beneficial at many places in our relationship with Christ. Sometimes, God puts us in a "wilderness" of sorts so that we can draw closer to him. Not necessarily draw closer to a different brand of amusement.

If you make time at the beginning and end of every day, taking all your cares to him, he will be your solace. Even if you are lonely.

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supertree on

Re: 6-29-08 Friendships

I know, I feel like I messed up on a lot of the time I've had that should have been spent with God. I am in a season of being single, again so I have more time on my hands, and time to give to Him, and I'm not using it the way I feel He's tugging at my heart to. And the way that I had been doing. I feel like I want to but I don't want to make the effort to. It's like it goes out of my mind and I don't think to pray to Him and have Him guide me while I go through so many changes. Thank you for the help, you're helping to cement it in my heart to turn to God and away from so many distractions/bad temptations.

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sandyquill on

Re: 6-29-08 Friendships

If you ever want to drop me an email, please feel free to do so. sandyquill at gmail dot com.

In my life, I spent a lot of years single and I really, REALLY wanted to get married. REALLY. And finally, I just came to a place where what I REALLY wanted was what God wanted and I was very happy being single.

Which was, of course, when he sent the Spousal Unit. Messed up my whole single-girl gig!

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supertree on

Re: 6-29-08 Friendships

thank you, I might take you up on that!

I know, I've done the same thing before. With my first boyfriend, I prayed the night before he and I met to God saying I gave up it was in His hands and bam. next day there was that first love. So in my head I know thats what I need to do, it's that pesky heart I'm having trouble with - its not wanting to listen.