Well it's been a long time since I have written on this thing and I never really have written on it.  It's always been poems, but today I thought I would try something different.  A lot of things have happened since I last wrote, I killed Bambi, realized there is many people who care about me, christmas comes and goes, I got a new job and place to live.  All kinds of shit have happened.  But anyways I was just sitting back talking to a friend when I realized something.  Everything I never wanted to happen to me happend in 2005.  I lost the love of my life and failed out of college, not once but twice.  Damn near killed myself and welll I'm just gonna leave it at that as I know someone who will read this and is gonna rip me a new asshole already.  I guess all i'm trying to say is that I wish 2005 would just disapear and with it now being 2006 hopefully shit will get better.  The outlook so far though is that it ain't getting any better. Peace I'm out.