Dixie currently feels:
Depressed
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Yesterday, whilst Adam was round here again - he told me he can tell when I'm depressed.
His main reasoning was, whenever I'm with him, I'm prone to laughing spontaneously for long periods of time. I'll laugh a lot at most seemingly normal things he says.
But his reasoning was that when I'm depressed, I don't laugh, I'll only smile minorly.
So I thought, and I applied it - and I found that he was right.
So I'm wondering, am I really that obvious?
When I'm alone in the house and depressed, I'll wander up and down the passage, staring at the floor.
If I'm laid on the sofa in the living room, I'll stare at my reflection in the fireplace for ages.
If I'm in my room, I usually sit differently in my chair - I'll slouch more, whilst I normally sit really straight.
I've also noticed I get less enjoyment from things, and when I think to myself, I swear less, and when I talk, my voice is a lot more emotionless.
When I'm around others, I'll isolate myself.
In school, I'd sit down my aisle, or I'd sit at a table alone.
If I were on a table with others, I'd remain silent, and work quicker, with my head down.
Yeah, I'm starting to realise.
I actually am that obvious.
I must've been really sad yesterday, because Adam actually hugged me.
And that never happens.
mindsay
