I mean, I freek out when I realise how things have changed. I try not to think about how many years has passed but I think not thinking about it on regular basis might do more harm than good.

I was just remembering back when I was 5. How it was 10 years ago. And I completely freeked out. I started shaking and I had to put music on to calm me down.

It's hard for me to talk about the past. I like remembering good times and I like sharing them to my friends, but I haveto be careful of thinking of how old I was or how long a time ago it was. I can control myself infront of people. But it hunts me down when I'm alone.

It is SO hard to explain. I just wish I would be ok with the fact that things change and I get older and that people change. So I quess I am scared of change also..

Is this normal, or have I invented a completely new fobia? Is there anyone suffering with the same thing?