So for some reason ive been thinking life would be better if i jus kinda wasnt here ne more. like gone..dead..mom wouldnt have to worry about shelling out money she doesnt have for me, my roomate can have a roomate that doesnt have to worry about their financial sitch fuckking up and like everyone wuld be better off. im thinking i shuld just pack up my shit and leave..ima miss it here like nothing else but i feel like everything is crashing around me and i dont know what the fuck to do. i sent out like 10 applications for work, and most places and calling ppl till mid oct, ive sent in resumes all summer and no repsonse...and its all cuz i dont have any experience. aim turning into quitethe emo kid and that upsets me. and this fucking knife wont cut like my trusty exacto knife..which left me. i have no idea where it is. i miss it. ugh, im gonna go play with this dissapointment of a knife now. if i blog again then u know what decision i made.