I just don't get it ...

... someone please explain to me what is wrong inside my father's head. How could he sit there, drink his coffee, get dolled up , ready to go out, while his friend of 16 years, can't even walk accross the room.

 

Now, all he wants to know is " how much did it cost ?"  What the fuck is wrong with him ? I didn't take my cat to the vet yesterday hoping to kill her for a cheap price. If it would of taken a thousand dollars to make her as good a new, i would of gladly paid it. She just has stuff wrong with her, that couldn't be fixed.

 

I just don't understand my father at all. How could he leave her laying there, and not say a word about her, until he was 3/4 of the way to fucking club yesterday. I don't get it. I just don't understand.

 

He proved to me, what kind of a person he was yesterday. He proved to me, what he is, and what he cares about. He's an asshole. That deserves to get the crap kicked out of him. That's what he is to me.

 

Time will never heal this wound, or make me forgive my father. I am sorry that I am even related to someone that could do that. I hope what goes around, comes around. In the end, he'll meet his maker, and get what's come'n to him.

 

What's my plans for today ? Umm.  I think i am gonna go out with my friend barbie. If she's still go'n out tonight. There is the busch series race to watch at 630. Other then that, I'll do whatever it takes to pass the time. Dinner was two cheeseburger's if that matter's to anyone.

 

I don't know what else to say for this blog. Anyone have any question's or comments. I feel so alone.

 

~ i just don't get it