:) hmm..the smileys dont work on here..anyway...everytime i wake up...i feel like wanting to die...because everyday is exactly the same..just like that song from nine inch nails, and i am so sick and tired of it...im alone all of the freakin time :( just me and my laptop and computer, and i am very thankful for my laptop and computer, because if i didnt have either, i wouldnt be connected to people, and i would be sooooo crazy..and im glad they have liveradio on the internet..its awesome. :) anyway i have a cut on my wrist..because well....i dont have to explain..everyone knows why other people cut...or do they?? i used to think..why do people cut, its soo stupid wtf is wrong with those people, now i see why they cut..i mean...i enjoy doing it..its like a thing for me to do...annd umm...yeah...i want people to see that i need help..so that when they see it..they would like...want to help me find people just like me :)..i've tried so hard to help myself out...like getting help and such...no luck :( all i get is bills...but i am here..and blogging...and that helps me out so very much...i wish i had friends to hang out with that deal with the same shit i deal with..we would have so much fun keeping each other company :D...anywass lata!! please...uhh...someone please respond :) and...more than one people can respond...xxxx btw im not fake :( i am so real
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