soo its been a while and i've been better.. :/

So...i havn't been on in a few days because i got really sick tuesdays. like, i wanna stay asleep kinda sick. I went to work and I had to go home round 12 because my legs felt like they were gonna go out on me. so i came home and passed out and i woke up feeling like shit. My mom called the dr and i went in at 1pm yesterday. Come to find out they didn't know what was wrong with me. I didn't go in yeesterday to work bc i thought i had leningitoius...i think i spelt that wrong..well neway, i went back to day feeling 10 times better and i have strep throat. I've been on antibiotics since yesterday and i think i'm fine to be around people...less chance of getting anyone else sick i guess. neway, i have to take 2 pills for 10 days and I have 8 days and 18 pills to go! YAY! this should be just bunches of joy! NOT! that pil...is one fucking big ass pill! its huge! I don't like huge pills! but i guess for an antibiotic its suppposed to be? neway...as long as i'mfeeling better by monday, i guess i'll be better. for everyones good.

 

neway...my weekend was actually more eventful then i had said....sunday night i went to see "Accepted" which was really good! But I would have enjoyed it better if i hadn't been left sitting alone...:( it made me sad and kinda hurt that i was left sitting towards the front/middle of the theater and everyone else was in the way back...by the back way. i don't like the back wall. back walls arn't as much fun. plus, there like....i think 5 guys my age sitting just down from me. so i stayed and made my point. and i was with 5 other people. and a guy i like...which i have only known him a few weeks, was the last person to leave me sitting there. alone. i wanted to yell at them, but i didn't because i prolly would have gotten bitched at myself. I just decided to be a bitch to them the rest of the night. mature huh? yeah i know. i know i shouldn't have but hey! i had a reason to! so it hurt my feelings more then it probably should. we left the theater and went to a park to hang out at for a little while and i cried. i feel dumb, but i cried. it made me remember when i was left sitting at a bench during wiz bang days fireworks a few years ago. i was left sitting on the bench and that was that. not even a word.

 

we got to the park and i cried. idky but i did...and yeah! other then that and that idk if I like a guy or not or if it was the alcohol i had saturday or if it was just me. and now that he knows i have strep, he prolly won't come near me for a while, which i don't blame him either. and i don't wanna feel like this towards someone if it was just the drinks i had. bc i want to like someone other then just from the affect of alcohol. i wanna like that person for whwo they are. not for what they look like on the outside like every other guy out there. you know, the ones only looking for sex. i don't want that kind of guy. those guys are assholes. assholes arn't any fun.

 

so yeah i'm gonna go...idk if this was a ranting entry of what, but i had to say something about sunday night. well, ttyl n night n much <3!