lovespirit

My times with these friends were of my very best memories in my whole life, even tho we did not end up staying together and I had pain over missing them and wishing to be with them.  But, had I not done it, I would have missed out on some of the best (most romantic..to say the least) times of my life.  Unfortunately I was married and was not supposed to have been doing this, but I was going thru hell and did not see it as bad at that time. (I have since found that I had the guts because I was bipolar and never felt afraid of anything when I was on a high...just went hogwild for whatever I wanted, despite the repercussions.)   One of these fellas is still my best friend in the whole world.  He just could not see me leaving for him.  He said if I wished to leave, I should put the horse before the cart and do it the right way round, and he suspected that I was too loyal, ultimately, to my husband and kids to actually make the break and he was right.

But since you each seem to have had a fair amount of communication with these fellas and you feel in your heart it is right, then go, baby go!  You only have one life to live....and if it does not work out then, 'nothing ventured, nothing gained'.