it is liberating as far as living life's moments to not spend time and precious moments of my life watching television because one day i don't want to be anyplace thinking about the few years i have left to live and reflecting on old episodes of whatever the highest rated show that were

i love seeing dust on the steps or bits of crumb on my dining table

it is all a silent statement to me from myself that no other person would understand but i know that life is more relaxing to me now that i am not always picking up or cleaning so that i can feel as if the day is done and everything is in it's place

people have comfort zones and i am finding my own after never really stopping to think that maybe i don't have to be so seriously organized every waking moment of every day

there have been so many times i'd sit somewhere while waiting actually thinking i wasn't in the mood to go home and clean the kitchen or bedroom but i had to go do it so that i could rest assured in my head that everything was done wishing i could let it go

now i am to that point in life and i wonder about all the other things that are so easy to get over and get past if you just decide to get over and past them

here at my desk i see this incredible mess but i don't care to clean it up and organize

there is a basket on the floor by my desk that i put everything that needs filed or shredded or needs further attention and the things in it go back as far as months

i love the basket

it just goes to show...