See, I saw the title warp spasms and immediately thought of star trek

I learned about anger rather early in my life. Maybe it was because I grew up hearing about how, exactly, I came to only be able to see out of one eye. (Anger at a crying child.) Or maybe it wast he anger and sorrow I could see in my mom when she talked about the death of my father. Or the anger of God, which was something I heard much about as a kid. Then again, I also read about the anger of the Characters from the bible. HOw, often, their unthinking anger would lead them in to folly.

But I came to know that type of anger, that type that was so hard to control, personally at a fairly young age. In 8th grade I remember, after a year that was full of ridicule and abuse by various classmates, just completely exploding on one of my fellow students. It seems a minor thing now, he made fun of my weight and said I'd do the Roger Rabbit on him. (You remember that movie right? Roger couldn't help but dance at a particular tune.) I don't know why, but that moment something just...set a fire inside of me. At that moment I learned that the phrase "Seeing Red" wasn't just a metaphor for anger; it can be a literal experiance.

Yes this sounds funny, but I did do the roger rabbit on his head that day. And it took an ultimate moment of self control to pull that anger back and gain control of myself again.

Since then I have tried to never get that angry; giving my life to God has helped very much in that area. But I know, even so many years after that event, thta I can become that angry. To have that first warp spasm (heh) hit me.

And in this case, I don't want to go warp factor six

Well, rage will surprise us, for sure.  It takes a lot of self-discipline to reign it in once it gets going.

You have learned in a hard school.

Yah, luckily God has taken alot of that rage from me over the years. I got very angry for awhile in high school...

love your vulnerability shown here, and honesty; thank God for his help in our lives, hey?

heh I dunno; I just say it how it happened to me. Thanks though

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Ahh...This was a great writing. Thank you. The visual to some may seem exaggerated, but truly it isn't. Having grown up seeing and being the brunt of such ugly anger, I always swore that I would never be like that, til one day it too reared its ugly head inside of me and exploded. If it weren't for God H.S. changing me, I would have been the 'never' I didnt want to be!

 

Thanks for sharing again!

Dawn

The warp spasm was totally ancient writing. <smile> Translated. But I'm glad you liked it. It's a favorite of mine for its sheer power.

God is good.

Whoa.  A warp-spasm.  Well, I've never seen anything close to that, thankfully.  But thanks for this.  There is a lot of out-of-control anger out there.

There really is.  People are sometimes afraid to let God have the control over that part of them.  It can lead to tragedy.

Great piece of writing by both you and Thomas.  And yes, I have felt such rage that I felt it was tearing me apart and that had someone (or the spirit of Christ) not held me back, I would have been apt to slice a throat without as much as a second thought.  This is when you know emotions can be dangerous, and why there are murderers in this world.

 

I love the scripture from Psalms, Refrain from anger and give up your rage; do not be agitated it can only bring harm.

 

My washer has just been agitating.  It is a good thing in stirring the soap into the water, to wash out the dirt and render clean clothes, but in a person, it can stir up other things that will result in dire consequences.  I had known that I have needed help in all sorts of agitation, and not just anger, and am thankful for help, and peace, at last.

see, and i just thought they called it pms.

 

seriously...you do manage to write some of the most intelligent and thought provoking essays.  *and* you include those sat words.  a gf is SO proud.  (((((((((((sandy)))))))))))