hard timeI am so sorry that I havent update this blog before. I have been busy and tried to find a new job so hard. I moved to the new place for three weeks. I sweared to myself that if I couldnt get any job here! I might move on to another state. So, I keep telling myself like this all the time, just wanted to remind myself about a hardly finding job here.
I have a few reason that I dont really want to leave this state. I and my boyfriend waited each other for awhile to live nearby each other. We spend and learm more each other during a hard time and situation. When I was unhappy and worried all of the problems that happened to me. He and his family are always be with me with no doubt. They let me come into their family and I became one part of them. I dont really want to move away from him. It is gonna be hard to let our relationship grow by the long distance. He doesnt want me leave neither. He would love to have our own family and spend the time with me as long as he can.
Anyway, I hope and believe that God has never leave me alone. He always be with me during the hardest time. He knew and realized how hard is life on the global earth. I am also smiling all along even though I got such a really bad storm in my life.
In the former day, my love had a really bad life before. He punished himself to get involve with drug. He has his own daughter but he broke up with his x wife bcoz of she cheatted on him. He sounded hurt really bad. He didnt have a chance to take care of his daughter by himself by the time he broke up with her. Until now, his daughter is 8 yrs old, she is so sweet but sometimes she kept herself by her own, didnt want to talk with anyone even tho her dad. I knew that she got a problem bcoz she didnt grow up with parents. She has to live with the grandparents. That story hurts me so bad. My boyfriend has never gotten her daughter back. She punished herself to not talk with her dad anymore. No one knows what is her problem. First time, I met my bf, I heard his story and kept telling myself that I should help him get away from drug and hope his daughter get back to him. All of thing I wanted to do to him right away seem so hard in the beginning. So, I wont give up. I always told him that everything might get better. He has to give her a hard time. i meant take her time until she realize that.
For my love, right now! he swore to me that I far away from damn drug and friends who invited him did that. He got a wonderful life after he met me. He got his lovely daughter back. I fulfill his new life. He said, he loves me more than I realized becoz of my forgiveness, kidness and happiness. I am calm, hosnest and different one from another women.
I am glad that my life is getter better after a big problem even tho I cant get any job now.
My heart is beating and returns to be freshy by the time when we are living together.
You guys pls wish me luck to find a job. I might get a good news soon.
Kitty
