Wow, exciting and crazy at the same time. I am so ecited for you. If I could go anywhere it would be Boston and then Mexico as far as road trips. Wherever you go make sure you keep in touch with us and be safe and many many pics please.

I would rather be more excited with Europe but since I really want to hug and kiss and laugh with my parents, the prairies will do..lol   There is a kind of exciting feeling about a "don't know where you'll go" road trip....I do want to do that someday....Just drive........North. South, East. West........whatever...and see what the universe brings....That does sound sorta Thelma and Louiseish...lol..No cliffs though....I tremble when reaching heights...lol

It is a pleasure reading your blog as always my HIgnessssssssssss!!!!

I know its a new begining but you can always make it and I know now that you will and it will be a good one...

 

Your dad sounds like a funny guy birdie... most of the people at that age seems to loose it.. Now I know were you got your one from.. spinachi.. hi hi hi ..

All I can do is to hold my hand pray to God for your well being ..

love

Tomaty

Dad can be a pain in your royal heinness's butt...but he does have a crazy sense of humor...loves jokes and love s to be goofy...or maybe he just is........but he is also... hypertense ....not so much any longer........I love his humor the most....That is the part I will always cherish...........our laughs....and our early memories before he joined the Gestapo...(joke). He was a strict overbearing parent during my teens.

 

The blogg was commanded of me....so I just wrote...Thanks for enjoying it.

Yes....I believe it will be a good one....

for you too

love your pal

The command was so worth it ... birdie.... I will command you again in two weeks or so ...after you have settle down a little... from all this...

have a good one!

Looking forward to your command...

 

     

I just had a bad stressful day.. birdie..

hope you are fine.. gotta go and take a shower sigh..

Oh no....

I hope your evening is relaxing sweetie....

take a nice long shower and just relax.......tonight......

do everything slowly......no rushing........no stress...

wish I could help..

I wrote a long journal now.. I feel better... I will take a long shower ..just to take off all the stress..

wish me luck !!

 

I wanted to reply to you last night when I got home but the light bulb was burnt out...lol and I couldn't see to type on my laptop....

I hope you had a nice evening P...I think you did...

love.

PS  How I would love to read your journal...Do you journal daily?

I had a good night sleep without any interuptions .of meaningless dreams..

I feel much better today.. woke up and feed aveen which would be considered as a prayer too.. It takes almost an hour to feed her a bowl of cereal.. but I still do it.. patience .. sigh..

You want to read my journal ?? nope hon.. I curse all the time so you might be frightened by it.. hi hi hi Yes I write it eveyday and it helps me a lot ...  .. no actually yesterday was a bad day ..in every aspect..

I am having some fat free milk and a bowl of special k choco cereal .. want some?

how about granola for Birdie? 

too late.

it is evening...

snacktime..

maybe I will eat some trail mix..lol

Oh Palsy...I feel sad tonight.

I have a friend who is depressed and I am unable to fix it...I want wellness for everyone I care about.

I am very pleased that you slept well....Do you actually remember your dreams?  I rarely dream or rather rarely remember them....but once in a while when I dream, it is vivid and I even see faces that I am certain I would recognize if I encountered them in my wake state....That is weird...when you see their face.....

You are a good Mom....very patient..Tell me about yesterday....in as many aspects as you want to...hi hi hi...no fun at all yesterday?

Speaking of dreams.. I had a terrible nightmare tonight.. though I don't know what it means.. I need to start my praying again..

Here it goes:

                 I was lying in the middle of my and it was dark and suddenly I see someone opening the door and slowly with his head down coming in.. I was so shocked that I was looking straight and he saw that I have seen him so he quickly came near me and pressed my left hand tightly so I can let it go.. I tried to scream and call but nobody could hear me and it was horrible.. so in my dream I started saying some arabic which said God Is One.. . and kept on repeating and I woke up.. I was so aftraid birdie.. my wrist was still hurting as if it really happened.. I slept like 2 in the morning cause Far came home late from work and then started to watch the game for the rest of the night.. So I woke up like 4 again with this terrible nightmare..

How about you hon? Are you feeling okay today?

That is scarey....Honey.........to me...it means this.......

 

You feel like you have lost  control of your own life..People are invading your comfort, your space and all you can do is allow it......but it hurts......and the worst part is that you feel you are unable to stop it... Even when you went back to sleep.the invasion of people (some known, some strangers) continued..

Loss of control...whether physically or emotionally is very traumatic honey and you know ............deep in your soul...........that God is your salvation..

 

I am okay........I have decided to be happy solo.....and every thing else will be a blessing.

Go with God, Birdie, for wherever you are, with him it will be home.  Drive, think, sing, play and most of all, laugh and treasure those who show you love. 

 

I love you and wish you all the best...but you'd better not forget us...do you have a laptop?

 

I would never forget my posse....lol.....my galpals........my banditas...my favourite poet..........(make that a plural)

Yes...I have a laptop .............I am on it right this second....Thank goodness for that....

I would be .............lost........without my connection...

need that energy..........

I am so glad you have that at least...a bit of yourself and us with you always.

Bon.....I deleted as you asked.. Shall I delete the other reply of yours with the name on it?

I haven't viisited that blogg as I recall..not the new one.  (now old one)

 

I understand your feeling about the matter..

Lonliness and Curiosity are universal.

You sound ok with it all, so I am not worried

Though I wonder where you will "plug in" to update [us][me]

Check your mail xoxo

Hi Miss,

 

I just this second got your mail...and got on line for the first time today...I am ironing and packing soon and then taking my suitcase to a suite I rented for the summer.....I am not sure if I will be able to call you this evening...I will try....Tomorrow morning I am on the road....

Are you the sunshine?

Are you a flower?

Are you spinning?

Are you smiley faced all of the above?

Well...one thing you do.......is make me smile.

love

Yeah my head is spinning all right...tired...

 I am glad that I made you smile..

You did...

Somehow the word spinning made me smile...

Takes me back to a very smiley time..

Palsy....be in the moment and if the moment is time to rest.....you must...

It is so very difficult to do.....I am certain...but it is the only way to get through .........busy times.

thinking of you with love my dear friend.

wish I could help.