I'm finally...kind of caught up in classes. I'm not ahead by any means and it'll be very easy to fall behind again if I don't bust ass tomorrow and Thursday, but I think I'm finally caught up. (I fell behind pretty far. Online classes are so much harder to stay on top of.)
Chris and I had our first moment of...irritation and emotional distance yesterday (well...I guess technically two days ago. Monday.), but we owned it. We confronted it after we were over it, called out the weirdness that we felt. I hated feeling that irritation, and I kind of withdrew from him. Bad thing was, we were still going to be around each other for another hour and a half. We both got into this battle of wills. We each wanted our way, so we both tried to manipulate the other into doing things how we wanted, and we just got a bit more irritated. But after we calmed down, we both apologized. Even though nothing was really said. It was all body language.
Anyway. Let's just say I was glad he had to go back to Sacramento and I have the next few days to get my zen back. 'Course now, I'm stressing about other things (school...money...hating my job...my room's an utter disaster and stressing me out), and I would kill for him to be here. But there's nothing to distract me from it, so I'm being forced to deal with these things. Which is probably best.
Now, I'm officially rambling. Time to sleep. Just get to get up in 8 hours and start it all over again!
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