I always thought it was a bad thing to be awkward and uncomfortable, but this guy IMed me today that has me wondering. He says he knows me from the radio station at Bing, which is entirely possible because I don't pay any attention to the people that trail in and out of that place. I probably did meet him and just forgot; my memory was never good. In any event, we had an extremely awkward conversation earlier in the afternoon that led me to believe he was a total creeper. I'd forgotten all about that conversation (and him) until about 10 seconds ago, when he IMed me again. He apologized for making things awkward earlier, and I told him it was fine (honestly, I wasn't that bothered). I mentioned that I don't like being uncomfortable or awkward, and he replied, "You should learn to embrace being awkward. 70% of life is awkward."
No one has ever said that to me before. No one's ever shown me that take on things. It was an interesting moment of revelation that helped me deal not only with the conversation but also with stuff that's ensued with Matt.
Life's pretty fucked up right now. I just don't know how to really function. College is... not what I expected. It's inherently weirder, and more debilitating.
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